[Anonymous37919]

I clearly remember registering on a casting site for extras. I went to an open casting as well, so they knew who I am. It's for a film about Mary, Queen of Scots. Obviously, creating a profile may just be the beginning process and you still have to attend a casting call. I'm not sure. But I definitely had did both. To be honest, I think I've been blacklisted, but they don't want to say so.

Anyway, I emailed one of the assistants who I've emailed several times before; I had names provided in a welcome email or something like it, that advised people to retain these contacts in case one needed assistance. So I emailed one of the ladies today nicely stating that I needed to know the exact details like the days of the shooting, and what was required, since I need to cut my hair soon, as it's getting a bit shaggy looking, and they obviously wouldn't want to cast someone with no hair.

She said at first, I had to match a brief and if I match the brief, the company would be in touch. What brief? Then she said I had to have a beard. Then she says she needed to check size requirements, in separate replies. I've explained to her that I have other films to work on next month, so I cannot cut my hair until I know for sure what's happening, and I don't want to get a shaved head if I have parts to commit to in films. Also, I cannot grow facial hair for one movie and then have no hair for another one in the same month, as they are too close together.

So I signed into the site and noticed all my details were not there any more, but I could still sign in. I recall adding the details before, because when I could still access Universal Extras, I knew what to add on that other site. It asks you for the vital stuff like your measurements, a few images, and other details like where you reside. I added all that already, but nothing was there anymore. The lady replied back saying I wasn't on the database, but until this morning, I could log in to see I had registered. Then I noticed that whatever I tried to add wouldn't add for some reason. The same page would just kind of get refreshed and nothing would be listed on it. You just click a menu for each option, and apply the measurements and other details as required.

She said I could try registering again. She said I cannot get my profile deleted because there is nothing to delete. Now I noticed I cannot log in at all after logging in this morning, so she must have erased my account after all, but even after I logged in this morning, she said I didn't have an account.

I had to upload DBS stuff a few weeks ago by email and send it to her that way, because the pages exceeded 2MB and could not be uploaded on the site. It is mandatory by law, but it has a lot of crap about me (5 pages) and it shows my court charges listed. Is it possible she has scrubbed me, and is just making excuses now? She asked me to rejoin. What if this is just a wind up, I make a new profile, and that one ends up blocked as well?

I'm confused. Why would she block you from the site? Maybe it's a problem with the site itself? I have no answers for you.

[Artchic528]

You should find another passion. Obviously acting isn't working out for you. It causes you nothing but pain and strife. Maybe work on getting a degree of some sort?

[childofchaos831]

I would agree with starrysky, it might be a glitch on the site itself. I would say try reregistering, and see what happens.

It sounds like you are really interested in being an extra on this, and redoing the profile wouldn't hurt that.

Also, then if it disappears again, I think the plausibility of them scrubbing you is more likely. I always try to give the benefit of the doubt first, until the evidence is overwhelming.

[Anonymous37919]

Well, I'd have to do my measurements again. I had them on Universal Extras. I'm just seeing a page on there now telling me to contact the activation team, because my membership lasted 2 years and expired in May. In all the time I was on that site, I never got a job because there was never anything advertised that turned out to be genuine. But I thought that I could just sort of transfer the answers across to the other site. However, I should have wrote them in a book, because I don't know my own collar size for example. I'll try rejoining the other site later on, but if it occurs again, I'll know it's not an error.

To be honest, I blame the court for all this nonsense. My charges were only supposed to be on my record for a few years, as far as I'm aware. They could have been off my record by now, as that few years has past. Then because I sent apologies and stuff like that to my former support workers, it appears the anti-harassment orders were extended and amended again and again, so that would explain why all the charges are still showing up on the disclosure certificate. If they had been expunged, the first page would be blank, and there would probably only be just that single page. It's actually 5 pages of all this crap, mostly saying I had my sentencing deferred, with lots of updated conduct requirements, like stating that I (the offender) am not to approach the people involved or attempt to contact them, until what looks like the summer of 2020.

My disclosure has racial and sexual harassment listed, because when those involved angered me, I sent a few nasty emails calling them everything under the sun, because I was so very pissed off by that point, and I felt I needed to let off steam. It was really just a load of insults. That was what resulted in me being remanded in jail the first time. However, anything listed as "sexual" in particular is bound to get anybody put on a no-no list. They really upset me. But as you can see, it didn't do me any good to retaliate by throwing a wobbly once too many times. People are usually going to assume the worst when anything "sexual" is there in bold, since they probably don't know me, nor anything regarding the situation.

Anyway, I hope one day, they will get their just deserts for all the pain they caused me. I'm a firm believer of what goes around, comes around.

So it's possible that you are known in the acting community then for the way you behaved? Would you say you learned from your wrong actions? It sounds like you don't think what you did was not that bad. I'm not sure how old you are, but do you feel remorse for what you did? Sexual harassment IS a serious charge. You say "it was really just loads of insults.". But if those insults were sexual or racial in nature...there you go. Also it is wrong to be insulting to anyone. It is immature to throw a tantrum. Were you perhaps threatening them? I'm curious to know what they did to upset you so. But I'd say, regardless of what they did, it sounds like you hurt people, or scared them. Maybe you thought you were retaliating. I don't know. But retaliation is wrong and immature, especially when the intent is to harm someone. Whether physically or emotionally. And it clearly has repercussions.

Do you feel that being an extra is enjoyable? Is it hard to find work everywhere because of your charge? If that is the case, I might suggest looking for other types of work, or getting involved in a different scene. Of course, I'm not suggesting you completely give up your passion though.

[Artchic528]

Originally Posted by starrysky

So it's possible that you are known in the acting community then for the way you behaved? Would you say you learned from your wrong actions? It sounds like you don't think what you did was not that bad. I'm not sure how old you are, but do you feel remorse for what you did? Sexual harassment IS a serious charge. You say "it was really just loads of insults.". But if those insults were sexual or racial in nature...there you go. Also it is wrong to be insulting to anyone. It is immature to throw a tantrum. Were you perhaps threatening them? I'm curious to know what they did to upset you so. But I'd say, regardless of what they did, it sounds like you hurt people, or scared them. Maybe you thought you were retaliating. I don't know. But retaliation is wrong and immature, especially when the intent is to harm someone. Whether physically or emotionally. And it clearly has repercussions.

Do you feel that being an extra is enjoyable? Is it hard to find work everywhere because of your charge? If that is the case, I might suggest looking for other types of work, or getting involved in a different scene. Of course, I'm not suggesting you completely give up your passion though.

Well said. Acting is very hard to get a break in. You have to be beyond excellent at that craft to get anywhere and then it's all luck and who you know.

I second looking into another field of work. Perhaps working on a degree like I said before.

Can you petition the court to have your record expunged?

[Anonymous37919]

Star, if you want to know the ins and outs of what happened, I suggest you read my older threads. They are a confusing, rambling manifesto for the most part, but they all provide information that reveals that they did abuse me.

I used to have support because of having something like autism, so I had support from a company in Scotland, and I've claimed benefits for around 10 years now. They didn't say I had autism exactly, but I had gotten support for many years, after they said I have something called PDD-NOS.

In 2011, I moved into supported housing and I remained there, until the summer of 2014 when I ended up in jail. The company had a few staff members visit me in jail, and they said they could have handled the situation better, but that is all on them for lying to me. In general though, their workers had a history of abusing me. One guy called Patrick had been sending me emails using an alias called Bruce Ritchie, winding me up. My original key worker was a woman, and she told him about my quest to find an ex-girlfriend, who I last saw before 2012 in 2005. He admitted it was him. Supposedly, he was only trying to help me, but the emails were all highly abusive, and he said lots of sick things about me and people I like. Yet I couldn't do anything about that since I couldn't verify that he was harassing me (he never used his real name) and then years later, we met up and played pool.

A service user who argued with me on Facebook said things to my former key worker, who is Spanish, because I linked him to a page about me on this nasty website, so he told her about what was on it to get her to turn against me. When I also revealed to other support workers around the same time period that I had feelings for a few women, including my key worker, their bosses removed them and lied over and over again, by saying they were still my workers, and that we would get more shifts together, when it wasn't true. The ladies had said they did not want to work with me any longer, and before they were removed, they were not treating me very nicely during my shifts, probably to try to get me to sway my feelings for them, but it was like they were bullying me. It was like the managers needed me to get angry so they could pin it on my reaction, and I fell into their traps several times, because they said it was my reaction that got them removed, when they were already removed, so it seems I was just sold down the river. The rest of the story is way too long, boring and confusing, but I basically felt like I got screwed, and it made me feel terribly unhappy for a long time.

Contacting these women resulted in me going to jail on remand many times, and being arrested and relentlessly pursued by the pigs many times as well. They sometimes found me outdoors because people gave them my mobile number and they can trace the signal somehow if they are in a certain area for a while, and you happen to walk right past them as they lie in wait. The prison staff in Edinburgh also sent me to Barlinnie in Glasgow, calling me a sex offender. The protection hall was full up, so I got an unexpected transfer on a Friday. The court also had a supervisor (a social worker) monitoring me for a long time, and when I found support elsewhere, he started to use these guys as his stool pigeons. You know? He wanted to use these people to spy on me and report stuff back to my social worker, who in turn would contact him.

There was no backlash for the staff who messed with me in any way, shape or form. They just expected me to suck it up and not break the law any more by contacting these women, despite all the betrayal, heartache and garbage that ensued. The court also wouldn't let me go back to my flat either. Then the assistant boss tricked me to sign away my tenancy in 2015, claiming I had rent arrears, as I had to stay with my family per the court's orders, and the court wouldn't allow me to return to that flat. So I contacted the council after I'd seen this person, and I think I was duped, because what they said didn't match what she said, and so on and so forth.

[Artchic528]

Okay...that can't be expunged....time to reaccess your life and work on that degree.

[Anonymous37919]

How can it not? Anything can be expunged. The court just has to make a decision about it.

[Artchic528]

Originally Posted by Peter A

How can it not? Anything can be expunged. The court just has to make a decision about it.

Eh, I was trying to be funny. Maybe not a good time.

Originally Posted by Artchic528

Eh, I was trying to be funny. Maybe not a good time.

Technically anything can be expunged since the world runs on information and technology. Just hire a hacker mercenary from the mafia or dark web or something or do the hacking yourself if you are a pro and hack into the servers that list your criminal record and start purging.

Of course, one tiny little screw up and you will have even worse problems to deal with but I won't get into that haha

But yeah, normally I wouldn't suggest somebody to stop doing something that they're passionate about regardless of what somebody says, but it seems like you're time and resources would be better spent doing something else. If you don't want to go to college, start a business or maybe if you still want to do something "acting" related, become a cosplayer or learn how to make costumes or something and post stuff in Instagram and Facebook. You can make a killing doing things like this thanks to ads and marketing and things like that (I can PM you more info later if you're interested but don't have the time now).

Regardless, I wish you the best.

[Anonymous37919]

Unfortunately, even revealing where I'm from, or linking to innocent YouTube videos on my channels, following years of pestering from people, can lead to me being harassed online even further. It does seem unfair. Many people for example have a subscription for the pro version of IMDb.com so they may have photos and videos on their claimed page. These are standard and hopefully happy things that many people love to reveal about themselves, because life is for sharing. Right?

It's also not really a good idea to put your real name on Facebook, I will agree, but not doing so can set off a reading that you are maybe impersonating somebody else. Therefore, it is obviously better if you don't try to fool the staff by making up a false name. Clearly this violates your own privacy, to an extent. I'm not the only person who dislikes putting their real name on Facebook. Twitter isn't like that, though. You can use just about any name you wish, within reason.

A recent example of online abuse was when I thanked Sylvester Stallone in the end credits for a short film I created, because he inspired me to become an actor, and so I was asking the staff about it on IMDb.com on their support forums recently, because I was wondering why it wasn't put up yet after I submitted his name along with my friend, and my sister, and one other person who they had already approved. So then an administrator told the person in question who was complaining in a post, that per their policy for submitting credits, I wasn't actually breaking the rules.

Obviously, trolls don't want such a high profile actor like Stallone to be associated with a home made movie, so I'm sure he was the person who went and gave my video a thumbs down after moaning on IMDb.com about it. Of course, that's just childish, and I should learn to brush it off. However, some nasty people can develop a sort of evil grudge over this stuff, and then try to worsen the harassment through their own personal hatred. Seriously! I know how trolls operate; I've been dealing with the worst of the worst for over 15 years.

Anyway, maybe from now on, I should have my videos discretely advertised and disable ratings, and comments, and maybe just stop telling people about my discoveries. I've also noticed that people subscribe to my YouTube channels, but somehow hide themselves so I can't see some of the accounts that subscribe. I'm not going to allow people to subscribe to my accounts that I cannot check, so the minute anything offensive is posted, I will have to block those involved and delete their comments.

So I'm going go out on a limb here to suggest that maybe you find another career choice. This obsession seems to be the source of a great deal of grief. You seem to be spending more time putting out fires than accomplishing steps towards your goal. At the very least put some of this passion into a back up plan.

[Anonymous37919]

Darkness - not to come across as a 'Grammar Nazi' here or anything, but are you aware that you're and your are two different words? You're basically means you are while the other word means to talk about i.e. your sweets, your shoes, or your spelling. OK?

P.S. I really do not have the money or the mindset for doing cosplaying, but I appreciate the help. I know people who love to dress up as Jill Valentine from the Resident Evil games.

I agree with the last poster, though.

Originally Posted by Peter A

Darkness - not to come across as a 'Grammar Nazi' here or anything, but are you aware that you're and your are two different words? You're basically means you are while the other word means to talk about i.e. your sweets, your shoes, or your spelling. OK?

P.S. I really do not have the money or the mindset for doing cosplaying, but I appreciate the help. I know people who love to dress up as Jill Valentine from the Resident Evil games.

I agree with the last poster, though.

Not to speak for Darkness, but you are completely coming across as a grammar nazi.

Best wishes to you and whatever you choose to do going forward.

[Anonymous37919]

My mate said today that he had a guy at his door asking for me. Then a while after that, someone else showed up, asking about something I was selling on Gumtree, when I'm not selling anything on Gumtree. I'm sure I know who is responsible: I believe it's this troll from another site I go to.

He got my friend's address from a video we made, and is just playing silly pranks.

[Molinit]

Peter, you have no insight into your situation. I think you need to find something else to do with your time, acting is not going to work for you.

[Anonymous37919]

No, because I think a certain somebody got me blackballed last year. Well, it's not just that: People who may see my YouTube videos can deem me as not being talented. I'm not going to convince them otherwise. Plus, I've never even heard a word yet about my upcoming support.

I'm basically going to have to pay for my own support now, because this social worker I had getting me support in the past found me the wrong sort of people a year apart, which caused me to waste my time and miss out on stuff I really wanted to be involved with, because he likely didn't fully tell them about my autism, anxiety issues and my acting ambition, so then I had to await new support, and the patter was repeated. He probably just explained about my court crap. New support workers don't need to know about that, because I already told him that I won't have females any more, so I can't have that issue with me getting infatuated with them.

Many months ago, I had this guy from Morocco who was just being a moron. When I asked the agency he was working with if they could replace him, they said they would. They never, claiming they had nobody to replace him with. So I lost faith in that social worker. He knows about my court charges, but I already told the knob 2 years ago that I'd just have men so I will be okay. But he kept moaning about what the support should be used for. He also knew I was being supervised. He completely wasted my damn time.

Originally Posted by Peter A

Darkness - not to come across as a 'Grammar Nazi' here or anything, but are you aware that you're and your are two different words? You're basically means you are while the other word means to talk about i.e. your sweets, your shoes, or your spelling. OK?

P.S. I really do not have the money or the mindset for doing cosplaying, but I appreciate the help. I know people who love to dress up as Jill Valentine from the Resident Evil games.

I agree with the last poster, though.

Yes. I was in a hurry because I had to leave for work in less than 5 minutes when I made that post and I type 80 WPM. Due to the speed of which I was typing, I was bound to make a mistake or two.

This site isn't an essay or professional email, therefore, grammar isn't as important to me. Communicating on here is informal; much like using slang like "what's up bro" when communicating with friends in a non professional setting.

So yes, I know the difference between "your" and "you're".

[Anonymous37919]

My friend said to me yesterday that two guys were at his door, looking for me. We think someone is just playing a silly prank, because a troll from another site I go to got my friend's address from a video I uploaded to YouTube. Do these idiots not even have a life?

Quit and move on please. At the very least this ongoing situation you describe of persecution will be put behind you. This has not been a successful pursuit.

[childofchaos831]

I don't understand why so many people are saying "move on" or "give it up." If this is what Peter wants to do, then that is all that matters. I don't see Peter asking for advice on whether to quit or not. I see venting and just general talking. To me, telling him to give up on his passion is uncalled for. We all have passions, and sometimes things get rough, but giving up on what we love will not make things better in the long run, imo.

[Artchic528]

Originally Posted by childofchaos831

I don't understand why so many people are saying "move on" or "give it up." If this is what Peter wants to do, then that is all that matters. I don't see Peter asking for advice on whether to quit or not. I see venting and just general talking. To me, telling him to give up on his passion is uncalled for. We all have passions, and sometimes things get rough, but giving up on what we love will not make things better in the long run, imo.

Well, what he goes through trying to achieve this "passion" seems to be causing more harm than good for him. We are all just trying to make sure he does what's best for himself, regardless of what he chooses to pursue.