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Default Feb 01, 2018 at 11:51 PM
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I know, I was trying to go over this list the insurance company gave me, and there's no one website that's consistent.

Ugh...I think of talking to a new therapist and get panicky.
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Default Feb 01, 2018 at 11:53 PM
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I hate talk therapy. Cantina will suffice.

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Default Feb 02, 2018 at 08:35 AM
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Yeah, I hate talking to therapists, too. Like, really. I talk to one psychologist, the only I trust anymore, and it's not workable between us because she's not really in private practice anymore. She said I should stop going through the list of therapists provided by my health insurance and just pick one--the problem is, I don't know any of them, and don't really want to extend to them the opportunity because to them, I'm just a case study.

I literally sat here crying the other day as I imagined myself trying to trust one of them and actually open up so I can get to the therapy. Can't do it. My palms get sweaty and I get to imagining how they're going to use what I say against me and I just can't do it.
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Default Feb 02, 2018 at 11:32 AM
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Maybe you can have a friend or family member you trust to help make the first few steps. Pick one. Go with you the first appointment. If you don't like them then try another.

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Default Feb 02, 2018 at 11:57 AM
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Nah. I'm very private about my inner life. The idea of taking someone along makes it worse. Part of the problem I'm having is there's only ten names on the list, and most of them are only sociologists. Sorry, I'm sure they do fine work, but a sociologist is nowhere near as competent treating deep-rooted trauma and psychological damage. I've dealt with far too many social workers who thought they were psychologists and the only real psychologists on that list are all too far from me--I'm not driving an hour to go see a doctor.

No, I called the insurance company and told them to forget it. I won't be seeing any of their doctors, and I'll never be filing a claim.

Anyhoo...how is everybody else's day?
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Default Feb 02, 2018 at 01:46 PM
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Sorry they are all so far away from you. I wouldn't want to drove an hour either. Maybe if it was for something less emotionally taxing. I want to go visit Chicago sometime this summer. It'll be the summer to do stuff. Unlike last summer where I sat around. I can do this...even if it is just 1 thing. Better start mentally preparing now haha

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Default Feb 02, 2018 at 01:59 PM
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The entirety of 2017 was nothing but a long series of one spectacular failure after another. Really not looking forward to 2018. Every time I tried to get out and do something, it ended in failure. Like trying to go to GenCon, only to realize the roach motel has a CSI squad parked out front and there's nowhere else to stay and no friends came with because they had no money, et cetera. Yeah, that was just one instance of many.

Another year like that, and I'll be ready.

Chicago is fun, but Milwaukee is more like Boston. Only thing I really care to go to Chicago for anymore is to go to Topolobampo, Rick Bayless' restaurant.
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Default Feb 02, 2018 at 04:45 PM
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I have a hard time thinking Milwaukee is comparable to Boston. I hate Milwaukee. I love Chicago and wish I could afford to move there. Either a big city or the middle of nowhere, both will give me the solitude I prefer.

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Default Feb 02, 2018 at 07:43 PM
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I think for me, Milwaukee's architecture and layout sort of reminds me of it. I loved Bova's Bakery. We get there at one in the morning, and there's a line out the door. I'm like...wth...? There's people out walking with their baby strollers, and jogging--at one in the morning.

I also remember going to Cheers three times. Norm's Bowl of Chowder--their house clam chowder, was amazing. Small bowl, but it's like the TARDIS--bigger on the inside than on the outside. That and a souvenir mug was like $15.

Solitude for me looks like a small northern coastal town where it's a mild 80 degrees all year with a nice breeze off the coast and crystal blue water as far as the eye can see.
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Default Feb 02, 2018 at 08:01 PM
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Hello. Some strangers in my life helped me more than therapist. I also coudn`t open up because I was feeling insecure all the time. The therapist said it must be my decision and if I really don`t want to take a part in it, there won`t be progress. I quit.
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Default Feb 02, 2018 at 08:38 PM
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Yeah, that was bad therapy. You don't make someone more insecure if they're there to work on insecurity issues.

For me, it's more a fear that they will use what I say against me from back when it was a reality.
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Default Feb 02, 2018 at 09:12 PM
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I remember being forced to go to therapy as a kid. Then my mom would sit in and take over the conversation or discuss me afterwards, I never felt I could be me or open up. It turned me off from talk therapy. I don't feel I could trust a complete stranger who gets paid 150 bucks an hour. Like, I won't ever feel their concern or interest is genuine.

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Do you guys serve dogs at this joint? My pup wants a woofersnip.

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Default Feb 02, 2018 at 09:17 PM
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Sure, bring the little shvitz in. Just so long as you clean any messes. lol

And that is exactly what it is, Unhinged. I was in a place where I found one that wasn't in it for money, and knew by a sort of trial-by-fire. Now, I find it too hard to trust others because I don't want to put myself under someone's power like that.
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Default Feb 02, 2018 at 09:25 PM
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Even a psychiatrist is hard because I still need to talk about things if even for 20 minutes 3 times a year for a script.

Had one who said, you just need to learn to relax.

Gee, if I could relax I wouldn't be here.

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Default Feb 02, 2018 at 09:30 PM
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For me, I have a need to make the therapist my friend, first. It's a strange feeling...I dunno.
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Default Feb 02, 2018 at 09:35 PM
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Probably because we want a friend? I know I have like 1. In real life.

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Default Feb 03, 2018 at 06:32 AM
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Doing better than me.

*brews hot kaf for the morning crowd and turns on the TV...*

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Star Wars and Hitchhikers nerd here! Ermahgerd!

I refuse to see the Star Wars: The Last Jedi or the 2019 Star Wars Episode IX because both are so far removed from the 1977 Star Wars film and storyline.

Awesome cantina, by the way!
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Thanks! lol I'm the same way. OEU Star Wars all the way. This chimera that Disney is attempting to create is a crime against humanity. Worse, it's warping an entire generation into thinking that this is how Star Wars was, a watered-down, feel-good, saccharine mess with bright colors and sing alongs. lol

*pours mug of hot kaf for you*
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