[Tumnus]

He's alive but didn't raise me. I often didn't even know where he lived or if he lived. I hate Father's Day and the week after.... I seem to mourn the lack of a dad every year. Does it ever end?

[bebop]

have you ever thought about making contact with him?

[Pomegranate]

Originally Posted by Tumnus

He's alive but didn't raise me. I often didn't even know where he lived or if he lived. I hate Father's Day and the week after.... I seem to mourn the lack of a dad every year. Does it ever end?

I never knew my dad either. He died when I was 12 from alcoholism. So even when he was alive, "he" wasn't there. For years I didn't feel anything. The past 3 years I've started grieving and feeling sad every father's day. I'll never know him. I'm hoping as more time goes by, my grief will lessen as I go through the stages.

Knowing your dad is still alive could be causing your continued grief. Perhaps trying to contact him or simply sending him a card every father's day will help you with this. As might counseling.