[sleepless0x]

last year a girl who meant the world to me took her life.
her name was kerry. her eyes were the brightest of blue, her smile could brighten my day even when if i were at rockbottom. she was so full of energy and life. she seemed so strong, like nothing could hurt her.
i started dating her, and i couldn't have been happier.
there were some issues i had to deal with while dating her though.
she lived for adventure and rebellion. we used to skip school and run away from our principal while screaming discriminating words at him, but laugh about it. i ended up getting back into hard drugs while dating her. we'd always get into trouble together with the law, running from cops, mall security etc. that never bothered me, she gave my life such excitement.
kerry was one little devil i would do anything for.
she seemed happy.. but i got to know her more and more after being with her 24/7. i realized she suffered from severe depression. she would cut alot, and i always felt like it was my fault because i could never help her..
near the end, she would disappear for a couple weeks. i thought we were over so i started seeing someone else. one day at school she found out i was dating him, and in the cafeteria she poured her juice on me and i ran to the bathroom crying. she found out how much she hurt me and ran off. the teachers told me they found her cutting herself and sent her to the hospital. that was the last time i saw her.
on march 3rd 2009 she hung herself in her group home. she was hospitalized.
on march 5th 2009 they pulled the plug, because she didn't want to live on life support in a hospital connected to a tube for the rest of her life.
i listen to our song everyday.
y o u r g u a r d i a n a n g e l - t h e r ed j um p s u i t a p p a r a t u s

the first girl i fell in love with,
i will always love you.
♥

this song helps me get through the pain.
h e l l o , i ' m i n d e l a w a r e - c i t y a n d c o l o u r
♥

[bluegirl...?]

not sure exactly how to help, but i want you to know that i think that stinks that happened. it had to be really tough to go through and im sorry that your first love is gone. ive never really loved anyone yet, but if its half as great as what they say on tv, it most have sucked to lose her. but, hopefully, this whole thing will make you stronger in the end.

i hope you know that im always here for some conversation
>>Danni