[krisakira]

Today is the one month anniversary of my friends suicide :-( I can't believe it's been a whole month. I set up her picture in a frame on my night stand along with a candle. I let the candle burn this morning while I cried. It felt good to cry since I've been having trouble being able to cry about her death. But it's still so painful...

[Leed]

Of course it's painful ! It will be painful for quite some time. You're grieving, and that takes time. Everyone grieves at different time lengths - some heal quicker and some slower. When my husband died, I was in a "fog" for one year. I have no memory of that first year - I functioned but I just can't remember it. By the 2nd year, I was coming out of the fog, and the pain was still intense. I didn't think I'd make it thru but obviously I did. He's been gone going on 10 years, and now I can think of him with smiles, and remember the GOOD times, and not only the bad, like when he was suffering so terribly with cancer.

There will come a time in the not too distant future where you will be able to remember your friend with smiles too - and think of the fun things you did together. Just be patient, but in the meantime, allow yourself to feel the feelings. Don't try to keep them in, or you will never heal.

God bless, and please take care of yourself. Hugs, Lee

[yellowted]

((((to both of you)))))

[Sabrina]

I am so sorry for your loss