[Crew]

It has been a long time well August 25th, 1989 was my mothers birthday date and the day she died on...

but before she died, all the abusive family was there and I went in and tried to tell my mom that I loved her and she said to me and not sure if she meant it for me but she said I HATE YOU! Those were the last 3 words she said to me.
I feel angry b/c I could have gotten away from my evil father but she my mom begged me to stay. So I did and I was hurt more but felt that I had to be there for my mother. Then my father beat my mother so bad it killed her and because my father had so much money, freaking cops didn't do NOTHING!!!

I still can't get over her telling me "she hated me." How can I get past this?

Any ideas????
Thanks, Crew

[OurLadysTears]

Why would she tell you that she hated you?

[bebop]

hon she was on her death bed. you have to think about her state of mind at that time. did she really know who you were? did she really know what she was saying? just try to imagine it was your Dad or some other abusive person that she was seeing and not you!

[Mediator]

Crew I do no know it, sorry.
I am not sure that somebody could know it. I think only you can feel if you were loved by your mother. I am sure that my mother do not love me despite her words: "You know that you can be always with me. I will give you my blood if you need it. etc"