[bebop]

ago today I lost my brother. and wouldn't you know the numbness started wearing off today? the numbness of all the losses over the last year. I think I would rather be numb. Roger you are horribly missed.

[Toxie55]

Sorry for the loss of your brother. It is easier to be numb
I went to grief groups to get help with the loss of parents that helped
I started to pray alot because the loss is so overwhelming.
If you have family to support, that can be great.

[Sunna]

My sympathy for your loss.

I had similar experience after I lost my Dad.

There was something I did, not not quite so soon, but in years following, when the sense of loss kept finding me and choking me, when I would realize it's his birthday or that it's been a year, or when I was in some place that we've been together, or I drove on a street where funeral parlor was.

So this one time, for an anniversary, made a sort of a private seanse/wake/memorial ceremony. I gathered his slides collection from his travels, and a few of his personal things, his wallet, his glasses. I arranged everything on a table lit a candle and asked his spirit to come and be with me. And then I started watching the pictures imagining how he was taking those pictures, and talking to him about them, and telling him how much I miss him, and how sorry I was that I did not love him well enough before he died. I let myself talk to him as if he was with me in the room, invisible. I let myself cry, and I kept watching the slides, holding his glasses, till late late into the night, until the slow the candle burned out, and I could not cry anymore. It did bring me some peace.

[Crew]

Awww (((bebop))))) I am so sorry for your loss....

were here if you need to talk.... we pay that you will find peace amongest the storms you are having to get through. Your not alone bebop, please know
that.... God Bless You, with loving thoughts sent your way,

Crew