[cowboy1]

((((( WHY ? ))))) dose it seem so hard to get over the death of a mate. Everything I look at or touch seem's to bring memory's. From her hair brush to her clothes. ((((( WHY ))))) dose it seem even so hard to drive my truck. I am alway's looking at the passengers seat expecting her to be sitting there. To hear her voice singing to the music playing on the radio. ((((( WHY ))))) when I drive everything on the street bring back memorys? I can't hardly get around without constintly thinking about her. I don't know if I should sell my truck or keep it I am so confussed as of this point. I have no idea how to help me much less my daughter. I see the I LOVE YOU'S writen in the concreat every day I look at the side walk when I walk out of the house. I have no clue what to do. I am so lost without her im dieing slowly but shurely in my heart. I see a theripist but it seem's it doe's no good. I feel more angry when I leave there than when I walk in. I LOVE YOU HONEY AND I ALWAY'S WILL NO MATTER WHAT soon i'll hold your hand again forever and ever . COWBOY1

[Trippin2.0]

I don't think we ever get over it. I'm not sure we're even supposed to, that's why the concept is so foreign. I think we're supposed to learn to eventually let go, and adapt to our new lives, but not get over. Every family birthday I imagine my dad singing his version of 'happy birthday'. Sunny mornings I sometimes expect to hear his 'wake up' song... It's not as frequent as when he first passed tho, the expectations gradually lesson. These days, I sing his version to my siblings and his grandaughters, in honour of him my dad had a HUGE presence, it filled entire houses, so the gap he left was enormous. But even tho I don't miss him any less, I've learned to adapt to my fatherless life. It's not unusual for you to expect to see or hear your wife, and I doubt selling your truck would work, but know that with time, you learn to adjust. What helped me and my family, was talking about him, keeping his memory very much alive, and honouring his memory played a pivitol role in our healing process. I hope you heal too

[pegasus]

(((((((( cowboy1 ))))))))) Try not to push the memories away. She is always with you.