[KaylaLee]

My aunt's life support was turned off nearly a week ago, I'm flicking between being miserable and being unable to believe that it's happened - she's always been there, she can't be gone now. I cry at random times, the last time was when I realised (not for the first time, but the thought was going round and round in my head) that I will never tell her about prom, or my gap year, or uni. I can't eat properly anymore - I skip breakfast most days and lunch quite often, and my sleeping's gone weird - I can't get to sleep and then I sleep for much longer than usual, and when I'm awake I barely stop thinking of her. I feel like this will never end, and I know some people won't understand cause to a lot of people aunt's aren't that close to them I think. I feel like I'm coping worse than my brother and sister - I haven't seen them cry - so if they do, they do it privately, and they don't seem as affected by it. I don't know if I'm being weak or just coping differently or what. I don't know what to do with myself. I don't even know why I'm writing this - just feel like I have to say it somewhere.

[cowboy1]

No you are not feeling anything differant than me or most people this has happened to. I lost my bride in my arm's as she passed aeay and had to make the desision of pulling her off life support to and let her die again because she was brain dead. I know it is so hard and this only happened 5 weeks ago. You have no differant feeling or actions I don't. As far as everyone else they are going to react differant than you because they are built differant inside. There is nothing wrong with you and im glad you came hear to talk. If you need someone to talk to if you are down and out you can alway's talk to me. COWBOY1 HUG'S AND ALL MY WISHES.