[kala83]

So in the years of both of 2010 and 2011 I have lost two grandparents, my grandmother on my dad's side of the family as well as my Grandfather on my mother's side of the family.

all of this happened around when I had moved out on my own...to st.louis for school. As well as at that time it kind of made me come to realize that my mental health was not in a good place.

I struggled everyday trying to get school work done, as well as take care of myself to the best of my ablity. And with my limited schedule of the time doing so was not hardly possible.

My grandmother was taken away from me in January of 2011, she had struggled with cancer twice before in her life and they found out too lateshe had a tumor I think in her blood it was too risky too try to sugrically remove it. In fact it was a given if they did she would have bleed to death.
Seeing her struggle with cancer for years, and then for this to take not only her breasts from breat cancer and then for it to take her away was really hard on a lot of my family. My father and his brother ended up moving in to help her as she was waiting...

I was lucky to see her the christmas before she passed to spend time with her one last time.

My grandfather had demensia and it was horrible seeing my grandfather mentally pull away from the family. I felt as though I had lost my grandfather a long time befor we had to bury him.

Seeing the look on his face that he did not recognize me or my mother any more was one of the most heart breaking things I had to put myself through.

I think in general my grief was worse due to the fact that both my grandparents got taken from me in a fairly rough time of my life.
and all the stress just kina all toppled up right after the other.

[BonnieJean]

kala83, I'm sorry you've lost your grandparents and have been going through such a rough time. You've had a lot of stress to deal with all at once. Seeing your grandfather not recognize you and your mother must have been very hard. It is no wonder that school work has been more difficult to get done. I'm glad you are trying to take care of yourself. Are you able to talk to anyone about this?

[Girl-Interrupted]

Aww hunnie I'm so sorry to here this *hugs*
Have you told anyone ?
I'm here if you ever need to talk x

[kala83]

it ironic I was supposed to go to a grief support group this thursday but we had a major snow storm that closed down a ton of events going on that day. Its ironic since not only was I gonna go do that. But they have a sex positive therapy that goes on Thursdays too and both I could get to.
a lot of people in my family deal with grief in bad ways, they don't fully accept thats whats going on and they don't want to talk about it where as some do. So dealing with the situation I feel kind emotionally isolated and a lone. Hopefully the group will ease that feeling.