[NightFire92]

Hey...on August 20th of 2012, my twin sister passed away [age 20].

It was a normal night and I was getting ready to go to bed when my sister who has had a lot of medical issues like HHT [a condition that weakens blood vessels] was in the living room. She started coughing and woke my parents up who went to check on her. She got up off of the couch to walk to the kitchen after saying she was alright...and immediately collapsed on the floor unconscious. I heard my parents yelling "call 911!" so I ran out of my bedroom to see my sister on the floor...I ran over to her and put my arm on her but she didn't respond and at that very moment I saw a bunch of blood gush out of her nose and mouth...an image that I will live with forever.

I ran outside in my pajamas to await the ambulence. They arrived and shocked her heart twice on the floor but couldn't get it started. She was bleeding profusely from her mouth. She then went into a seizure and all I could do was watch...

She was pronounced dead that night at the hospital...

This is so hard to deal with...she was my ONLY sibling...not only that...but my twin. We were best friends and I miss her so much. I can't get those images out of my mind and sometimes I will wake up in a panic with flash backs.....and certain things also trigger flash backs.



It was such a shock to us because none of us were expecting it...she seemed to be doing fine....and then BAM...gone.

I miss her so much.

[perseverance11]

Hello NightFire92,

Sorry to hear that.

Take the time to pass this rough time. Don't put any pressure on you.

[roads]

I'm so so sorry. To ever lose a twin is harder than most deaths, but you have even more than that as part of your grieving.

I hope your family is already actively involved with grief counseling. Your family doctor could have started this for you. We have a grief forum here, and you may already be posting there. Feel free to check out any of the forums, posting wherever you feel a connection.

Roadie

Hi Nightfire, I lost my only brother Aaron three years ago. We were not twins, but everyone says he was the male version of me. He shot himself in the right temple, in a scene I too can never forget. When he pulled the trigger, he killed me too. It was unexpected also. I am here if you should be in need of a shoulder to cry on, a listening ear or any person to be there for you. Yours truly, Lightbulb7

i'm so sorry.

it's hard enough dealing with a loved one dying, but no one should have to go through that... seeing it happen

when i was younger, i saw my grandmother dying- but i don't remember too much about it.

hugs

[Travelinglady]

I'm so sorry your twin sis died--especially so young and unexpectedly. I, too, have a twin sis, my only sibling. Now and then I think about what a loss I would feel if she died first.

If you need to, then please get support from a counselor or some group consisting of people who have lost loved ones. And we are here, too. I really do feel for you and have a bit more understanding, I think, of what you must be going through.

[lindammarie]

My heart aches with yours. Living with grief sometimes feels like climbing a mountain that will never end. It is good to be able to talk about those we've "lost"... but sometimes it's extremely hard to do. I am glad there is a place where we don't have to be afraid or embarrassed.

Do you feel like telling us more about your sister? The things you miss the most?

[wing]

What a terrible thing to have to go through. I feel so badly for you and your family. My sincerest wishes for some peace.

It would be great for you to tell us about your sister if you feel up to it.

[BonnieJean]

Nightfire92, I can hear how painful this is for you. It remember how long it took to grieve for my mom. She raised me alone with no siblings. There's always a place in your life and heart for those we loose. Lindamarie makes a good point above. It sometimes helps if you can talk about your sister; times you remember with her, what she was like. We'd like to hear about you when you're up to it.

[Sabrina]

Nightfire, I am very sorry for your loss

[shezbut]

NightFire

I can't imagine the pain that you're suffering ~ not only to have lost a dear part of your life, but to suffer the memory of watching this occur. I am very sorry for your incredible loss.

Very gentle hugs to you...

[avlady]

I am so sorry for the loss of your twin sister. I lost a younger sister from hanging herself, and I watched 2 of my brothers die when I was a kid. i know the mental picture is something you'll have to work with, I feel for you soo bad , I can't even begin to explain it. I'll pray for you especially and your family. avlady

Iam so very sorry. I cannot imagine what i would do if my sister died. And you lost your twin, and in such a sudden and painful way. I cant imagine how hard this was for you. My heart aches for you.

[IowaFarmGal]

I'm so sorry for your loss, and for what you had to witness, nightfire and lightbulb and avlady.

Oh you poor darling. My heart goes out to you. The only advice I have is that in time that distressing last image will be replaced by happy memories and visions of the loving times you shared. It will be a long and gruelling journey.....take care of yourself. x

[skiier0202]

Originally Posted by NightFire92

Hey...on August 20th of 2012, my twin sister passed away [age 20].

It was a normal night and I was getting ready to go to bed when my sister who has had a lot of medical issues like HHT [a condition that weakens blood vessels] was in the living room. She started coughing and woke my parents up who went to check on her. She got up off of the couch to walk to the kitchen after saying she was alright...and immediately collapsed on the floor unconscious. I heard my parents yelling "call 911!" so I ran out of my bedroom to see my sister on the floor...I ran over to her and put my arm on her but she didn't respond and at that very moment I saw a bunch of blood gush out of her nose and mouth...an image that I will live with forever.

I ran outside in my pajamas to await the ambulence. They arrived and shocked her heart twice on the floor but couldn't get it started. She was bleeding profusely from her mouth. She then went into a seizure and all I could do was watch...

She was pronounced dead that night at the hospital...

This is so hard to deal with...she was my ONLY sibling...not only that...but my twin. We were best friends and I miss her so much. I can't get those images out of my mind and sometimes I will wake up in a panic with flash backs.....and certain things also trigger flash backs.



It was such a shock to us because none of us were expecting it...she seemed to be doing fine....and then BAM...gone.

I miss her so much.

Hi,

I know that you posted this awhile ago... I lost my twin sister 9 months ago suddenly (24 y/o).

I miss her so much too. At first I kept on thinking "this is not my life" this cannot be my life. I wonder if if there is some universe out there where maybe I am dead, and she is alive. I worry about her all the time and I just hope shes not scared, and shes safe. I hope there really is a heaven, but it frustrates me that I have to wait my WHOLE LIFE to see her again, and even that's not a promise. I see her in my dreams and maybe that's enough.

I know my twin would want me to be happy, and be strong. **** using her loss as an excuse to be weak. I'll use it as an excuse to be strong. **** not being able to function. I'll function at my best darn it! I've got a #1 fan routing for me from the world beyond. So do you. Let's triumph.

sorry for your loss

(((((((hugs)))))