[krisakira]

Ten days ago, I realized that my main companion in my life for the past thirteen years was no longer happy. Should I have realized this sooner? Was I blind to her suffering? I can't answer those questions, but what I can do is continue to reassure myself that I did the right thing when it was needed to be done. I don't know if it should have been sooner. But the main thing is that she is no longer suffering anymore. Eight days ago, I let Abby take her last breath and at the time, felt like it was right. She slept twenty-three hours a day anyway, being "asleep forever" would be no different, except for no pain and wetting herself. It was my best judgement to say that she was practically lifeless anyway, the few weeks leading up to putting her down. It was a rather rapid decline in health, and she lost almost a fifth of her weight in just under a month. She just did not enjoy life anymore. I felt like she was telling me it was time to end her life. She no longer wanted to be awake. So I gave her the greatest gift I could, and ended her life. Looking back, I have no idea how I remained composed during the process. But when the veterinarian started injecting Abby's little leg with the pink liquid, I knew there was no turning back. It was scary, to be honest. The unknown was ahead of me, and I wasn't sure how I would react. I remained composed until the next day. Ever since then, I have been a mess. Without my dog, I have been completely lost in this world. She was my security blanket. A constant in my life of chaos, bullying, abuse, and loneliness. She was there for me when no one else was. And now she is no longer here for me. Clay has been a huge support through this process of grief I have been going through, and he is now my security blanket. And so are all of you, my friends. Abby did her job to get me through my difficult times, and now it is only fair to let her rest. She did a good job, she was the best pet I could have ever asked for, and she has earned this rest. I miss her so much, but all I can do is remember the good times we shared before her health started to decline. If you could just keep me in your thoughts, I would be grateful. Thanks for reading this, it means a lot to me and my late best friend Abby.

[Sabrina]

I'm so sorry for the sad loss of your pet and friend. You did the right thing and she thanks you for it. My heart goes out to you.

[ADDithers]

I'm sorry for your loss too. I have two dogs - incredible companions to me. I know it's going to be very hard on me when their lives come to an end. I guess the positive here is, to know your dog lived a good long life, and came to a good end, and she'll always be remembered, and in time, you'll find healing from today's grief.

[kirby777]

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I am sorry for your loss. I cried for three straight days when I had to PTS my 13 yr old dog a few years ago. I felt the guilt as well...should I have done it sooner? Your dog loves you...remember the good times and how he made you smile.

I sleep w/one of his "stuffies". It makes me feel safe.

[gayleggg]

I have been where you are. I've had to go through it several times. It's the hardest yet kindest things we can do when they lose their quality of life. You will grieve but keep remembering the good times. Hopefully in time you will be ready to let a new furbaby in you heart. I did and she is now 13, so I may be looking another hard decision ahead, but until then I will love her and let her love me. You are in my thoughts.

And such a beautiful picture.

[Travelinglady]

I'm so sorry. These pets can really be special to us. I still miss my Mandy, who passed on a couple of years ago.

[Yoda]

[mazing]

Losing a loved one is always hard and it seems like she was an amazing dog.

Thinking of you

[lizardlady]

krisakira, I just found this.... I'm so sorry.

Abby looks like a real sweety in her picture.

I am so sorry. I just recently lost a twelve year old cat so I know your pain. May your little angel rest in piece. <3 My condolences to you and your family through this tough time.

[Pierro]

I am sorry Krisakira but you did the right thing for Abby. Putting your felings aside and doing the best thing for her. Best wishes to you.