[chantal2211]

I recently notice that SIDS existed when my friend who's friend lost there child from SIDS I was so saddened; she gave to birth to a healthy girl. At three month's her life change when she came back to check on her daughter, everything has stop around her; when she realized that her baby girl had stopped breathing. Nobody could understand why this happened even the doctor are question on why babies stopped breathing. When I heard the news I was so saddened that I didn't know what to say because my brother was going to be a first time father. I was so excited to meet my nephew that I had already started to buy baby outfits for the little guy. When my nephew came in to this world it brought us happiness and joy especially to my family because 8 years ago we had lost my sister, my parents daughter. Every time we saw this little guy he grew and grew and put a smile to our face. The week after Canada day everything change our little monkey man we would called him had passed away from SIDS. I would always blame myself because I afraid and I've mention to my brother that my friend, friends had lost there baby too SIDS, so I thought it was my fault but I know that it was part of grieving. Every time I saw a baby it would just hurt me that my brother or my family would never see him grow. On July 20th, 2014 I had to burry my nephew we put him beside my loving sister who I new would take amazing care of him. I haven't mention this yet cause I know I will say to much of it but my brother and his ex girlfriend who is the father of my nephew are not together; there relationship was rocky a month after Colton was born. So when all this was happening I didn't know how to be strong for my brother so when I saw him all I could do was keep a straight and just make him laugh by showing him that I had no tears in my eyes and that things will get easier. I really hope it does and that one day i'll be an auntie again and maybe have my own kids as well. I sometime hate it or I feel lost because, the neighbour's who I grew up with there older children that are my brother age are all having kids the exact same year so we were going to called them the Emerald Woods kids. When I see there photo's I either get really jealous, or a really big sickness to my stomach cause I'm afraid that its going to happen to them. No one should burry there children even a baby that they've held and raised for 3 months. I hope I will be able to meet someone on this forum who's going through the exact same thing that I'm going through even if there a parent, grandparent, uncle, aunt etc. Just know that your not alone and that SIDS is horrible way to die especially when your a baby and I would love it if they find a cure for it.

[Can't Stop Crying]

So sorry for your loss - I don't know the right words to say - keep posting your thoughts and feelings here. This is a safe place.

[chantal2211]

Originally Posted by Can't Stop Crying

So sorry for your loss - I don't know the right words to say - keep posting your thoughts and feelings here. This is a safe place.

Thanks you and I will

[Rainstorm1981]

I am so sorry for your loss. It is a horrible thing to bury a baby. I can definitely sympathize with you. I lost my precious baby boy to SIDS 4 years ago. I miss him so much. I still cry almost every day. I can't say it really gets easier with time but you do learn to cope with it. I think talking about your loss and remembering the happy times with your nephew will help. I got stuck just focusing on the death and that's not healthy. Cry when you need to. Don't hold it in. Check in on your brother frequently if you can and just let him vent to you. My thoughts are with you and your family. Feel free to message me any time if you'd like.