[Real_not_perfect]

So on Monday (December 8th) It's going to be exactly 10 years since my cousin had died. She and I had a very close relationship at the time, although I was young at the time she meant a ton to me, and I still remember when my aunt had called my family that day and told us she found my cousin dead in her bed and the funeral a few days later.

To this day, I'm still not over this. I should have moved on already but I haven't, and I've been breaking down even more than usual recently. I would try talking to my mom about it but she already gets annoyed at my aunt when she gets sad about her own daughter dying (my cousin.) I don't know how she would react to me talking about her.

How do I even cope with this? It's going to be exactly 10 years and it just feels like I have no reason to cry anymore, but it's so hard not to.

[Angelique67]

Can you set aside some quiet time when you can be alone and grieve? I find sometimes it's very helpful to light a candle and quietly pray, and talk to my friend in my mind. Good luck, and lots of hugs.