I got married to someone who physically and verbally abused me. for 31 years........ I found the courage to get a divorce, because I let the x live in my house for awhile afterwards, my church voted me out of membership, with my name up on a big screen, followed by the words, "Conduct Unbecoming a Child of God." Called to a meeting of deacons( 15 "men'), not allowed to have a woman with me and asked.....'Are you still having sex with your ex?"------ but being alone for these past 15 years...excruciating.
(In other words, I would have been married for 47 years); my mom died recently and left a small amount of money (she was 93 and lived below the extreme poverty guideline).....I went to the funeral home and made my arrangements, the the attorney's office. ..because I had the money to do it....but everything together kind of overwhelming.
Planning on retiring in a few months, but need to find a purpose; I am a sophomore at 69 because I wrote about my life and won a scholarship; I perform (ballet) at the University where I work.....and am scared to retire, but am turning 70 shortly and feel 18; people guess my age at 20 or more years younger........I plan to volunteer...rainbow connection ...xoxo thank you for reading this....Any ideas, suggestions, thoughts on how to stay busy, what to do , etc...
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