[Painfully]

Single mother of autistic boy and live far from everyone. Its me my son and my dog (daughter) Chica.. She's only 3. I rescued her as a pup and new she would grow to be big and liked that because it's like having another person in the house. She keeps my son calm during his melt downs and keeps me company because I work from home. She fell sick quickly. Vet said they couldn't do anything now all of a sudden I was given a choice to let her pass at home. I tried to talk to my son and it was an easy my parents give me up for adoption when I was 14 so I don't have family she was it. I don't know how to let go or even want to even put her to sleep. I'm completely beside myself to where I feel like I need to be admitted into hospital for depression. Does anyone have any advice ... I need help

[Skeezyks]

Hello Painfully: Welcome to PsychCentral. I'm sorry you are faced with this most difficult situation. My wife's & my dog "Joey" has recently been diagnosed with kidney disease. There is no cure. We are extremely sad. So I have some idea of how you are feeling. As you wrote with regard to Chica, Joey is like having another person in our home.

Unfortunately I don't know what I could suggest. Joey receives his veterinary care at the University of Minnesota Small Animal Clinic. I know that they have grief counseling services available there. If you happen to live somewhere near a university where there is a veterinary school, you might check & see if there is anything of that nature available to you. Otherwise, you may want to simply seek the services of a counselor or mental health therapist in general so that you will have someone with whom you can process your grief.

Beyond that, do keep posting here on PC. The more you post, & reply to other members' posts, the more a part of the PsychCentral community you will become. Plus, once you have 5 posts that have been reviewed & approved, you'll be able to participate in PC's chat rooms where you'll be able to correspond with other members in real time. So perhaps simply being here on PC can be of some comfort & support too. I wish you well...

[TerryL]

my friend had a kidney transplant 20 years ago and recently began having symptoms that could mean her transplant is failing. she would get tired and her legs would get swollen. she recently began taking a supplement called benvia gold which i think is basically chia seeds. chia seeds are known as a "superfood". she said the swelling in her legs have gone away. I haven't done any research into chia seeds but it might be worth your while to google on it. I know it is sold in health food stores.

[Curry]

Hi Painfully, I am sorry about your dog. It is okay to let her go, it would be taking care of her. I lost quite a few cats to coyotes that live in the forest next to me. There was one time, I honestly thought I couldn't carry on. I could handle my husband leaving, but not my cat. I decided to not have any more cats and then my son begged me to rescue a 20 pound cat and his skinny brother. We keep them indoors. I just feel pure love for my new friends. I am going through my son being addicted and my ex and my other kids screaming at me and him to fix him. I am supposed to fix everyone and they all scream at me. There is always a happy dear layer of love running through me, my life and my cats who speak to me in the quiet of the morning or when I am crying because I am trying to get through this life with love.