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In October 27 of 2018 my best friend since the 4th grade was murdered by a monster with no reasoning. She was with her boyfriend at the time who was not good for her and that has caused some problems as well. He was also murdered. I wont go into the gross details but he murdered them by beating them in the head and then wrapped them up in a carpet and left them to rot in his van for over a week until they were found.

It has now been 7 months since this has happened and it has truly taken till now to feel like there is a small light at the end of the tunnel. Such a shocking unexpected event as a murder seems to have made the normally hard grieving process even harder. To top it off my grandpa passed away just a few days ago and I honestly feel numb and cant accept the loss of him yet because I am not yet over loosing my best friend. Some days are quite hard and I feel that it just isn't possible what had happened to her is real. I can read the autopsy reports and see what the coroner has to say but it feels impossible to be true.

Possible trigger:

There was not an open casket funeral because her body had already started to decay while being in the van

and I guess at times it feels like I never got to say goodbye to her because of that. Came on here to hear other peoples stories and how they have dealt with loss of someone close to them.