Loss of my second mom who was such a beautiful soul

I’m going through a loss. My mom’s best friend passed away suddenly on June 29. She was the one that my sister and I always called our second mom. She had cancer but nobody knew except for her husband. Her siblings and nieces and nephews had no idea how ill she was. My mom had no clue either. It came as a shock for her family, our family and our whole community of friends. I still remember the day that she passed away. I was at work and an old friend texted me on my WhatsApp how are you doing have you heard the sad news. I was on break when I read that message and then I saw a message from my sister asking me if I knew what was wrong with our second mom. I was confused and freaking out. I left work to go to my second parent’s house and when I found out that she passed away I regretted that I couldn’t have another hug from her. Because just two weeks before she passed away, my husband emailed me on Father’s Day telling me that he wanted a divorce. So I definitely was going through a roller coaster of emotions. I was confused and hurt about why I wasted two years of my life on this person who didn’t even care about me. My second mom understood that because she knew that I deserved to be treated with love and respect. My second mom knew that I also deserved to be loved unconditionally.