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This Tuesday my dear mum died suddenly. I can't say it was unexpected, but definitely not in this way!
She'd been battling leukaemia for 8 years but her results of bone marrow were perfect! Last week her hematologist called that she was still in remission and they were very satisfied with her blood results. She could continue with her treatment that would prevent the cancer from returning. She was excited and so happy! We planned to celebrate great news. We wanted to have a little party in our small family.

On Thursday, she got a mild discomfort in her stomach, but nothing worth mentioning. On Friday night she vomited. On Saturday she was very sleepy, vomited and couldn't eat. She felt better Sunday morning. She cooked lunch, washed dishes and ironed clothes.

Sunday afternoon she stumbled when walking, spilled a glass of water and had a few minor memory /concentration issues. She planned to go to her Dr the next day.

After midnight on Sunday (Monday morning) both dad and me had to support her on her way to the bathroom. She probably didn't see well. She was disoriented. She fell asleep again when suddenly she began coughing out water and couldn't turn her head to the side. We had to put her in a stabilised position. We called the ambulance.

When they came, they asked her if she knew where she was. She did know that correctly, however she couldn't tell what year it was and couldn't touch her nose with her finger. They took her with them at 2.46am Monday morning. We weren't allowed to go with her.
Monday at about 11-12 we were told she was unconscious and they did CT but there was no stroke, bleeding or clot in her brain. She wasn't reacting to any stimuli. But she was still breathing on her own. She was still in ordinary "internal department". In the afternoon/evening they put her into intensive care. At night they moved her to the resuscitation unit. Next day at noon (Tuesday) it was over.

They did all the tests and couldn't find any reason for this.

Now, I've lost my closest, most beloved being. Someone I spent all my weekends with, someone I called daily, who I depended on. You see I'm quite socially isolated, I don't have friends in this town, they're all over the country and abroad. My mum was here for me physically... To hug, to chat, cook and bake together...
Now dad has returned from their garden cottage (where they lived together with mum from the spring to the autumn) and he'll live with me in the flat. He's a good person but he never used to talk much and we never had a very close relationship because he used to sleep a lot and when he didn't sleep he was quiet or grumpy. He has a good heart and he is caring, but I don't really know him as a person...
But these days we're talking quite a lot and we do everything together. Perhaps this will strengthen our relationship...
But nothing can heal the wound of losing mummy in such a way.

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I'm sorry dear, that would be a terrible experience. Much love to you and good luck with your dad.

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That's terrible news. I'm so sorry. Always makes me sad to hear about people's complicated struggles with health and life and death. I know how exhausting and emotional it is. Prayers for you!!
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I’m so sorry seeker : hug:

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Seeker, I'm so sorry for your loss. Losing a parent is really hard. Hope things work out with your Dad.

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Dear seeker, I am so sorry that you have lost the bestest mother, hugger and friend.

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I'm so sorry to hear this
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Wish there was a hug button on here.... I was going to say thank you but its inappropriate. I hope your as OK as you can be. I know about the close bond with my own Mum, was destroyed when she had her severe stroke in 2017 I miss her so much as although I still have her here we can no longer do things we use to do and it hurts. If I lost her though I would be extremely upset and possibly worse to be honest. A mother's love is like no other.

I hope you can reflect and go into your memories when you need to for comfort. I'm sure your memories are lovely and you can rely on them in need of comfort

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Wish there was a hug button on here.... I was going to say thank you but its inappropriate. I hope your as OK as you can be. I know about the close bond with my own Mum, was destroyed when she had her severe stroke in 2017 I miss her so much as although I still have her here we can no longer do things we use to do and it hurts. If I lost her though I would be extremely upset and possibly worse to be honest. A mother's love is like no other.

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I am very sorry to hear that your mom has passed away. Losing a parent is very hard. My mom died in 2012 and I still miss her like crazy.
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Seeker, I am so sorry.
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I am so sorry, sending you hugs. My mom died in 2019 and it’s still very hard. Sending you my love
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I’m very sorry for your loss and losing a parent is difficult.

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My mum died

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Seeker, I'm so sorry. Your mom sounds like a wonderful person.
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I am sorry to hear this; you have my heartfelt sympathies. This must be terrible to go through.

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Oh, seeker. I am so, so sorry for your painful loss. I hope you can eventually find some peace with not having your mom physically present in your life anymore.

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Thank you everyone for your kind words ❤️

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I am so sorry your mom passed. I know how rough it can be for you. Especially under such circumstances. May you get the support whatever it is you need. Hugs.
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I'm so sorry. It's hard to lose a parent and this was so sudden and unexpected.
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