I lost someone

OafFish · 07-27-2022, 12:27 AM

I lost someone recently and I don't know what to feel about it. I feel like the nature of our relationship was undefined, so maybe I don't deserve to be as sad as I think I am. I am trying to approach it in a logical way. I feel very disconnected and I don't know if there's a right way to reconnect to the world .

CANDC · 07-27-2022, 09:53 AM

Hi @OafFish glad to see you on MSF My Support Forums. Sorry you have had a rough time with a relationship. It is not easy to have a breakup.

For me the trauma does not depend on what the relationship actually is, but what my assumptions and expectations are. I may see a closeness that an outside observer does not see. That may be in my imagination. It has happened to me before.

It reminds me of the experiment with monkeys where one has nothing to embrace and another one has a wire mesh doll. The monkey chooses the wiremesh doll rather than nothing.

Sometimes I feel like my former relationships were like that, a little better than nothing, but not really nurturing or sustainable. Live and learn. But it is painful. It is not easy to separate myself from my imaginings.

All the best to you. @CANDC

Travelinglady · 07-27-2022, 02:49 PM

oaffish, losing someone, even if we are not very close, can put a hole in our lives. Please don't be hard on yourself for how you feel. Okay?

OafFish · 07-27-2022, 05:11 PM

I tend to only talk to one person at a time, and that was her. We were close, then we weren't. I never know what changes, but it always changes. I try to adjust to the new dynamic, but it leaves me feeling empty and foolish. All the plans that were made felt real to me. I never wanted a collection of past people, and I'm not very eager to find anyone else.

CANDC · 07-28-2022, 05:48 PM

I hear you @OafFish - it is almost like I paint a picture of the rest of my life with that person and suddenly they are not there anymore.

It takes a lot of reinventing and redefining who I am and what I really have to get me back on track.

OafFish · 07-28-2022, 06:14 PM

For me it's very hard to envision someone accepting who i am, so when I find someone, it's unique and miraculous and I can't even imagine wanting to find another.
It's hard to build up to the mindset of trying to meet a person. I feel like it's not worth the effort.

CANDC · 07-31-2022, 04:01 PM

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Originally Posted by OafFish

For me it's very hard to envision someone accepting who i am, so when I find someone, it's unique and miraculous and I can't even imagine wanting to find another.
It's hard to build up to the mindset of trying to meet a person. I feel like it's not worth the effort.

After a hard breakup the first thing I want to do is cut all thoughts of getting something from someone else and start to build back my life based on what I have and what I can do.

Does not mean I never started a new relationship, but I had to do some serious adjustments to what I expected from that other person. I expected way too much and they could not possibly have fulfilled my wishes. I keep learning as I go.

Travelinglady · 08-04-2022, 08:41 PM

I understand.. I still grieve over special friends that I've lost over the years. Each friend is different, and no one can quite take their place. But we still can meet some new special friends. I am hoping to have at least one before too long.

And I hope you will, too.

OafFish · 08-05-2022, 01:21 AM

Thank you. It means alot. As I get older it's harder to make connections with people. I don't think I'm particularly difficult, I think it's just how things are. I'm always optimistic things will get better.

Fuzzybear · 08-06-2022, 05:56 AM

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Originally Posted by CANDC

Hi @OafFish glad to see you on MSF My Support Forums. Sorry you have had a rough time with a relationship. It is not easy to have a breakup.

For me the trauma does not depend on what the relationship actually is, but what my assumptions and expectations are. I may see a closeness that an outside observer does not see. That may be in my imagination. It has happened to me before.

It reminds me of the experiment with monkeys where one has nothing to embrace and another one has a wire mesh doll. The monkey chooses the wiremesh doll rather than nothing.

Sometimes I feel like my former relationships were like that, a little better than nothing, but not really nurturing or sustainable. Live and learn. But it is painful. It is not easy to separate myself from my imaginings.

All the best to you. @CANDC

willowtigger · 08-06-2022, 11:04 AM

You deserve good things and good people in your life, oaf fish

OafFish · 08-06-2022, 01:15 PM

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You deserve good things and good people in your life, oaf fish

Thank you for saying so. It means a lot. I want to be deserving, and maybe that means earning. If I can be deserving of good people I want them to be deserving of me as well. I think everyone belongs somewhere.

07-27-2022, 12:27 AM	#1
OafFish Member OafFish has no updates. Member Since: Jul 2022 Location: The Far West Posts: 83 (SuperPoster!)	I lost someone I lost someone recently and I don't know what to feel about it. I feel like the nature of our relationship was undefined, so maybe I don't deserve to be as sad as I think I am. I am trying to approach it in a logical way. I feel very disconnected and I don't know if there's a right way to reconnect to the world .
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07-27-2022, 09:53 AM	#2
CANDC Super Moderator Community Support Team Community Liaison Chat Leader CANDC has no updates. Member Since: May 2014 Location: Northeast USA New England Posts: 15,696 (SuperPoster!) 2,010 hugs given	Re: I lost someone Hi @OafFish glad to see you on MSF My Support Forums. Sorry you have had a rough time with a relationship. It is not easy to have a breakup. For me the trauma does not depend on what the relationship actually is, but what my assumptions and expectations are. I may see a closeness that an outside observer does not see. That may be in my imagination. It has happened to me before. It reminds me of the experiment with monkeys where one has nothing to embrace and another one has a wire mesh doll. The monkey chooses the wiremesh doll rather than nothing. Sometimes I feel like my former relationships were like that, a little better than nothing, but not really nurturing or sustainable. Live and learn. But it is painful. It is not easy to separate myself from my imaginings. All the best to you. @CANDC __________________ Super Moderator Community Support Team "Things Take Time"
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07-27-2022, 02:49 PM	#3
Travelinglady Legendary Wise Elder Travelinglady 's traveling again. Member Since: Sep 2010 Location: North Carolina Posts: 43,892 (SuperPoster!) 21.8k hugs given	Re: I lost someone oaffish, losing someone, even if we are not very close, can put a hole in our lives. Please don't be hard on yourself for how you feel. Okay? __________________
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07-27-2022, 05:11 PM	#4
OafFish Member OafFish has no updates. Member Since: Jul 2022 Location: The Far West Posts: 83 (SuperPoster!)	Re: I lost someone I tend to only talk to one person at a time, and that was her. We were close, then we weren't. I never know what changes, but it always changes. I try to adjust to the new dynamic, but it leaves me feeling empty and foolish. All the plans that were made felt real to me. I never wanted a collection of past people, and I'm not very eager to find anyone else.
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07-28-2022, 05:48 PM	#5
CANDC Super Moderator Community Support Team Community Liaison Chat Leader CANDC has no updates. Member Since: May 2014 Location: Northeast USA New England Posts: 15,696 (SuperPoster!) 2,010 hugs given	Re: I lost someone I hear you @OafFish - it is almost like I paint a picture of the rest of my life with that person and suddenly they are not there anymore. It takes a lot of reinventing and redefining who I am and what I really have to get me back on track. __________________ Super Moderator Community Support Team "Things Take Time"
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07-28-2022, 06:14 PM	#6
OafFish Member OafFish has no updates. Member Since: Jul 2022 Location: The Far West Posts: 83 (SuperPoster!)	Re: I lost someone For me it's very hard to envision someone accepting who i am, so when I find someone, it's unique and miraculous and I can't even imagine wanting to find another. It's hard to build up to the mindset of trying to meet a person. I feel like it's not worth the effort.
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08-04-2022, 08:41 PM	#8
Travelinglady Legendary Wise Elder Travelinglady 's traveling again. Member Since: Sep 2010 Location: North Carolina Posts: 43,892 (SuperPoster!) 21.8k hugs given	Re: I lost someone I understand.. I still grieve over special friends that I've lost over the years. Each friend is different, and no one can quite take their place. But we still can meet some new special friends. I am hoping to have at least one before too long. And I hope you will, too. __________________
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08-05-2022, 01:21 AM	#9
OafFish Member OafFish has no updates. Member Since: Jul 2022 Location: The Far West Posts: 83 (SuperPoster!)	Re: I lost someone Thank you. It means alot. As I get older it's harder to make connections with people. I don't think I'm particularly difficult, I think it's just how things are. I'm always optimistic things will get better.
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08-06-2022, 11:04 AM	#11
willowtigger Grand Member willowtigger cannot write for crap now cause brain is messed up too much Member Since: Mar 2022 Location: UK Posts: 968 (SuperPoster!) 750 hugs given	Re: I lost someone You deserve good things and good people in your life, oaf fish __________________ "It's difficult" Boxer "I know, my friend, please do it for me, do it for all of us" Jessie - Animal Farm 1999 "There are some days, dark and bitter Seems we haven't got a prayer But a prayer for something better Is the one thing we all share" Someday - Disney Hunchback of Notre Dame "If love could have saved you, you would have lived forever" for my angel girl flying high The future will not remember, the past does not forget My avatar is of my angel Ebony, forever loved and missed
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