[mazer34]

My little girl was born sleeping 10 years ago,she was full term,after just 6 monthes when I lost her my mum told me my partner has been seen with the what should I call her ? "well know to men" women aged 19.I split up with him after knowing that.He never spoke to me for 1 year,then we became friends,but he wanted more,so we went back onto bad terms.He then started driving past my house upto 5 times every day and always seemed to know when I walked my baby son in his pram along the street.(I met someone else 3 years after and had a son with my new partner)This went on for seven years even though he got married and had a son of his own,he walked past my house with his baby in pram although he lived 4 miles away from me !his sis in law even put down their wedding flowers on my daughters grave.Then about a year ago he contacted me through bebo,he was right nice and we met up at our daughters grave just to speak,then he wanted more,Im married so is he so he was told where to go !then his wife emailed me saying to stop stalking him and how Im a psycho !he even said his wife is also my daughters mum and is entitled to put down flowers.I think about my daughter every day and wonder what would have hapened if she were alive today,would I still be with her daddy,the pain has never went away.I always regret not holding her to this day.but I always think then I wouldnt have met my husband and had my son and daughter with him and then feel guilty thinking this.

[bebop]

I am sorry for your loss. the loss of a child I think is the most horrible of all losses. I am sorry your ex and his new wife seem to have some real problems. please know we are here for you.

[I_WMD]

Originally Posted by mazer34

My little girl was born sleeping 10 years ago,she was full term,after just 6 monthes when I lost her my mum told me my partner has been seen with the what should I call her ? "well know to men" women aged 19.I split up with him after knowing that.He never spoke to me for 1 year,then we became friends,but he wanted more,so we went back onto bad terms.He then started driving past my house upto 5 times every day and always seemed to know when I walked my baby son in his pram along the street.(I met someone else 3 years after and had a son with my new partner)This went on for seven years even though he got married and had a son of his own,he walked past my house with his baby in pram although he lived 4 miles away from me !his sis in law even put down their wedding flowers on my daughters grave.Then about a year ago he contacted me through bebo,he was right nice and we met up at our daughters grave just to speak,then he wanted more,Im married so is he so he was told where to go !then his wife emailed me saying to stop stalking him and how Im a psycho !he even said his wife is also my daughters mum and is entitled to put down flowers.I think about my daughter every day and wonder what would have hapened if she were alive today,would I still be with her daddy,the pain has never went away.I always regret not holding her to this day.but I always think then I wouldnt have met my husband and had my son and daughter with him and then feel guilty thinking this.

Mazer ,,, {{{{{H~U~G}}}}}... Just a suggestion,, if you could seperate the child that is missing from your life >> but evidently ,, alive still in your thoughts and heart ,

...seperate ,, the Love of your departed child from the father ,, and the what ifs ,,[?] >>... maybe then ,, there would be less guilt on your mind ,, and more appreciation for that which is >> and not the what may have been ...

WMD.