[LSCS1950]

I feel like I am writing in the wrong place because I am grieving the loss of people still here. In many ways this so much harder for me face.
I separated from my husband of 32 years last Aug. I finally got the courage to leave an emotionally abusive relationship, but is me that is left so alone. My 20 yr old daughter won't speak to me or even tell me why. I always thought I was close with my inlaws. I don't understand how and why they act if I was dead. My husband and I are not enemies.
32 years and my 6 grandchildren and numberous nieces and nephews are just gone.
I now live 250 miles from where I was and I miss my friends. I mostly only hear from them if I initiate the call or e-mail.
It was bad living in a house where I was just the invisable 'doer'. Now I just feel lost and like my being has just been a waste of life.
Sorry, welcome to my pity party. I am so tired of.

[mixedup_emotions]

I am going through something similar....just separated from my husband of 14 years, in a mentally/emotionally/verbally abusive relationship....

And I dread the loss that I am facing with his family - especially his son. He is in an adult in the military and just got married. We care about each other, and I know he wants me to still be a part of his life - since I've been in his life since he was 6 years old and he's now almost 22....and we have a great relationship. But it won't be the same. I won't be a grandmother to his children.

I can relate to your loss, and it is overwhelming. It's bad enough to have to endure the emotions of the marital relationship ending. Losing more family on top of that is just too much to handle.

[Catherine2]

LSCS1950,
sometimes these losses are harder, imo
your situation reminds me somewhat of my own...I haven't found the courage to change what needs to be changed.
my motivation is gone/lost/ain't around

Catherine

[LSCS1950]

I will be thinking about you today.

[LSCS1950]

I'm sorry that you are suffering. I will be thinking about you today.