[turquoisesea]

I had a thought today.

I'm not very "depressed" feeling. I'm not sad. I'm not overwhelmed by feelings. I'm not repressing feelings. I have learned some helpful coping mechanisms for depression but this is not mood.

This is physical exhaustion, from very little physical exertion. concentration issues here and there. Some irritability. Muscle aches. Maybe I'm not sleeping/eating right, maybe there's an imbalance I don't know.

But my concern is this is not depression. even months ago in therapy my therapist was saying not everything I was describing sounded like depression to her and that I should get a doctor check. When I went to the doctor he checked for vitamin D, thyroid, basic vitamin check kind of thing found nothing and discounted it.
We also found a B12 deficiency over a year ago which is being treated with me taking supplemental B12 daily. That helps but there's still something wrong.


I definitely was depressed, I definitely still feel the effect. But I feel like something else is wrong.

It gets worse when I'm back in this city too. So i'm not ruling out environmental causes.



Any advice on how to bring this up to a doctor? One knows I might be depressed. The other does not but I am far from her and have not seen her in a while. I am afraid to even tell them I have depression for fear they will not treat me right. The doctor I have here has never come up with anything and doesn't want to run any tests because there's no reason to. He says "sometimes people just get unlucky".

I'm fed up with this and want to have some answers before my insurance runs out/I have to buy my own. Through my parents insurance plan I have EXCELLENT coverage (mental's not GREAT but it's there, physically is pretty good).

[Leed]

I think I'd acknowledge to my doctor that while I know I have SOME depression, I think this is physical -health related, as I don't feel well and am concerned. I think if you readily admit that you DO have depression, he won't be so quick to attribute this to it.

Ask him again to run some tests -- it certainly can't hurt. Tell him you want to explore this before your insurance runs out and your coverage will be limited.

I hope you get some answers -- I'm sure it's frustrating. Please keep us posted! Hugs, Lee

[Gus1234U]

i think you are wise to consider this, t'sea. i know i had a terrible condition that mimicked anxiety attacks, and since i have a history of those, my condition went undiagnosed and untreated, being simply 'assumed' to be in my head... when actually it was in my lungs... try putting your concerns in writing, and giving a copy to your doc, and keeping one, so they know you are serious ?? at any rate, do make an effort, don't just let your imaginings keep you from seeking help, nor past failures to stop your search... best wishes,, Gus

[Omers]

OMG someone else!!!!! TY!!!!
my insurance is horrid and I have had any test they would pay for before they could no longer find a Dr who accepted their insurance...
Pdoc has been with me a while now and blew it off when I first started working with her but now she gets it. She agrees that I DO have depression and SAD but that we have those well regulated with meds. She agrees that there IS something else wrong but all the tests came back just fine! she can tell the difference as soon as she looks at me in the waiting room!
All my unprofessional friends want to blame it on my son. But I KNOW there is something physically wrong! I have all the "unprovable" symptoms of being sick... including some strange ones that seem to be specific to me... But test find nothing.

[sunrise]

turquoisesea, how is your sleep? Poor sleep can make one feel physically exhausted, depressed, irritable, forgetful, and unable to concentrate. Do you fall asleep during the middle of the day? Take naps? Find yourself waking up after a night's sleep and still feeling tired? Do you have trouble falling asleep? Or fall asleep before your head has barely hit the pillow? (Either can be signs of a sleep problems). Do you snore? All these may signal you are having sleep difficulties. I was depressed a few years ago and exhaustion due to lack of sleep went right along with it. I'm not sure if I got depressed because I wasn't sleeping enough, or I started sleeping poorly because I was depressed. When I got more sleep, my depression improved. So I'm just throwing that out to you as an idea for what might be causing your symptoms. Take care.

[turquoisesea]

hmm as far as sleep problems i'm not sure if I snore, I fall asleep not too fast not to slow, but sometimes get up in middle of night, maybe 1-2 times a week, fall right back to sleep. I don't normally take naps. But I was waking up often still tired.

Omers sorry you're dealing with this too! <3

((((Gus and Leed))))


I got one test done to make sure my B12 levels were normal and they are more than normal they're high which doctor said is not a problem, so at least that's ruled out. I'm going to schedule an appointment with the other doctor who listens to me more soon.