[Maya]

I don't even know where to start. Six months ago I found out I had kidney disease (I have only 1 kidney and it is 1/3 dead). Then it started to fail, I was short of breath, I hurt all over, I could not walk, I have Rheumatoid Arthritis and they made me stop my meds for that because they were killing my kidney so now I hurt even worse. I have had 3 MRIs, X-Rays, weekly blood tests, and every one of my 12 doctors has found something else wrong with me. Blood vessels in my brain have burst causing extreme headaches and my muscles were eaten up when my kidney went south. My health is gradually improving but the diet I am on (white bread, chicken, peas, and greens) is boring and not nutritious but I am not allowed to eat anyting with potassium. I am wondering why I bother. I suffer from depression and anxiety and both were made worse by my health. In fact, it was my T who coerced me into going to a doctor and I wonder if I should have told him NO and allowed nature to take its course. Life can suck.

[SleepsWithButterFlies]

I am so sorry it sounds like you have been through hell ..I agree life can suck no doubt about that. It sounds like you feel very alone and frustrated...I am sorry nobody saw this post till now....Being ill with so many things would make anyone feel down..do you have any in real life support? Keep posting more people will see you and hear you

SAFE HUGS

((((( Maya )))))

Yikes. What a lot to be going through.

I hope your health continues to improve.

Keep us posted.

Sending healing vibes,

Petunia

[krzyk101]

Hang in There--I know all to well how the depression mixed with physical illness and pain are all combined at the same time are able to 'feed' one another and especially when all are flaring up at the same time and seems a vicious cycle.

I have done the most for myself to try and stop and enjoy the times when experiencing relief from one ailment, no matter how short or long lived it may be to try and make a time to relax and enjoy the 'good moment'. I know at times for me I feel as if it can seem so unfair as the depression and pain seem to consume. I do hope that you are feeling better at the time being and that you do not give up hope that this will somehow be resolved even when seems none in sight.

I will be thinking of you and suggest to try and keep going for today. I guess to say I do understand the cycle of feeling unwell and mixture of depression. I send you wishes of hope and courage and to know you are not alone.

Peace and well wishes sent your Way. - KK101