[emoangel]

It seems that I am always sick, one thing happens after another.

First of all, I'm 22, 5'0, and 102 pounds. Im not under or over weight, which is good. But I have all of these health problems, that, at this age, I really dont think that I should have. It really worries me, because I havent even gotten into a job yet, (I have another year and a half as a teaching major and its stressful enough) and I am already having these problems already. To top it all off, I will be teaching full time next semester, and I wont be getting paid for it either, so if things are stressful now, I cant imagine how I am going to make it through that.

I have depression/anxiety, acid reflux disease, low grade anemia, ADD, hemorrhoids, and lots of OBGYN issues. I just cant ever seem to be well enough to enjoy life. I am really upset, and I am so frustrated I just feel like laying in bed and crying all day, but I cant because life just keeps on moving. At the same time, I hate taking all these pills, its like I've just given up,but I really havent, though I'm struggling to continue.

I am seeing a therapist right now, but shes hard to get into see, because she is so booked all the time, so when her office has an open appointment, they call me, but I cant always make it because I have class, and work.

Its hard for me to tell this to my boyfriend, because he makes me really happy, and hes never really had to deal with major depression, so he doesn't really understand what it feels like. He doesnt understand why I cant just shake off what I'm feeling, and I dont want to make him even more upset. He really tries to be supportive, and hes really sweet and really good to me.

Some days i just feel like im teetering on the edge and I dont know what I am going to do with myself.

I dont know what to do with myself, and I am so sad, but its like I am so busy that I have to put all of this on hold, and when Im not busy, I am so exhausted.

I cant tell what is triggering what, and how to get myself out of this cycle of chronic sickness. Please help me

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[(JD)]

The emotions and the physical body are very intertwined. I found CBT to help me with this, changing my thinking and attitude has helped overall.

I sure hope you can get on a regular schedule with your T, even if that means missing class and having to make the work up later. THIS is important: you are important. More important ,imo, to get yourself squared away or the other stuff won't matter anyway, right?

You can do this