[Fridagurl]

In may I had scheduled knee surgery. Came through with flying colors. Then the real fun started. Abscessed tooth, extraction, allergic reaction to antibiotic. EMG testing on my face, diagnosis of myasthenia gravis, allergic reaction to medication, brain MRI. Excruciating abdominal pain, collapsed at work, trip to ER, kidney stones. Sinus infection turned into pneumonia, horrific pain from breaking rib by coughing, 4 trips to ER in five days, out of work and on major drugs for a month. Throughout all of this, my hypothyroidism has flared and I have extreme headaches, fatigue, brain fog and depression. I am on meds for depression and thyroid, but right now it feels inadequate at best. I am back at work and struggling to do the bare minimum-which sucks because I am the boss. I am seeing a new T and we are doing some groundwork for EMDR. it's been very hard to cope because I barely get through one thing before the next crisis erupts. I spend most of my time crashed out in bed because I have no energy and don't want to talk to anyone. Friends and family are very understanding. Housemates-not so much. Well, thanks for listening. I would love to hear from others whose depression, etc is compounded by medical issues. Thanks.

[reesecups]

I understand where you're coming from. It never seems to be just one medical issue with me. It has to be several. Some days, I just get home and crash. After about a day or so, I will at least usually set a goal to accomplish something, even if it's just taking a shower. I also try to at least go one place in a day. Even if it's only to grab a quick lunch. And all I can tell myself is 'don't think ahead'. Like right now, no one knows what is causing some of my problems and if one doesn't resolve in a year, it might require major surgery, which I do not handle well at all. But today, can I do anything to change my conditions? Am I doing all that can be done? If you answer yes, then just focus on the current day and what you can do, not on what might happen further down the road. It's hard to have physical issues with severe depression. Take care.