[Marylin]

In 2016 I had post menopausal bleeding and they investigated and found a cancerous polyp.I refused a hysterectomy and did the surveillance route and ate salads and all foods I discovered were anti cancer and I got the all clear in six months.Now I have the same symptoms except no pain,just bleeding down below.I am hoping it is just a non cancerous polyp or fibroid.In any case I am going to see the doctor on Thursday and I am starting back on the anti cancer foods diet.I am disappointed,I haven't been eating healthy and shouldn't have allowed this to happen.I suspect it is due to me having aspartame in diet coke,I have been drinking that stuff for about a year and last time it was the same I was drinking the diet coke for a year before I was tested for the cancer and I had it.Aspartame is a toxic poison,but I was struggling with diabetes and sweeteners seemed to be a solution instead of sugar,but neither is good for you.So be warned diet coke is bad for you folks!

It's weird to get cancer again when I am in a similar inner state to last time I had it,I felt my life was lonely and hard and I wasn't sure whether I was going to live or die.I decided back in 2016 that I wanted to live and so it gave me the opportunity to learn with God's guidance all that I needed to do to cure cancer,such wonderful knowledge,and once healed what so I do,go back to eating foods that are bad for me.When will I learn?Anyway I am feeling again I am not sure if I want to go on living and God gives me a choice ,do what you need to be healthy and live or die.I am back to Square One.Luckily I have Chris Wark's book,How To Beat Cancer.I followed his program last time and beat it!I can do it again but I am tired,do I want to live?I don't know if I do have cancer but it's likely that I do.

good luck.

if you don't have it,that is fantastic news

if you have it, you've beaten it before, you can do it again

(((((hugs))))

[winter4me]

It sounds like you have the 'tools' that work for you and that is great. It is OK if you let yourself slump and grieve and wonder at times, and you are in a state of not knowing for certain right now and I know that intensifies negative thoughts for me.

[Marylin]

Hello all,
I had an ultrasound scan yesterday.Today I got a letter telling me I am booked in for a hysteroscopy next Thursday 18th.I am not looking forward to it,I have to have the speculum inside me and a camera go in,it's painful and unpleasant and I don't like it,but I guess,what with the bleeding,I have to have a biopsy taken.The ultrasound was positive,she said she found a small fibroid but nothing else abnormal,she didn't detect any polyps but that wouldn't necessarily show up.I also learnt that the thickness of the lining of the womb,is 3mm which is an improvement on last time when it was 5mm which at the time was too thick and abnormal.They say thickening of the lining leads to cancer so it is good that mine is a normal thickness.So that is my news so far,just that I have to get a hysteroscopy next week.

[Travelinglady]

Sounds like it will be good news!

[Marylin]

I hope it's good news!

[Marylin]

Hiya all,I caught a heavy cold and I have a sore throat,my eyes and nose keep running.I was supposed to have a hysteroscopy today to get a biopsy of my womb done but cannot go through this procedure with a heavy cold,so I cancelled it for today.They will send me another appointment,they said,when one is available.I am much more comfortable with that,it means that I can recover from this cold and get through Easter first.

[Marylin]

My hysteroscopy has been rescheduled for 2.30pm tomorrow,Thursday 25th April.
I guess I am glad to be going and getting it over and done with.
I would have liked someone to go with me for support but I guess I will have to suck it up alone.
I will be glad when tomorrow afternoon is over.

[Marylin]

I had the hysteroscopy yesterday,it wasn't pleasant but at least it's done.The doctor said it looked normal no signs of cancer,she found two polyps which she removed and sent to the lab for biopsy,and she removed a bit of the lining of the womb for biopsy too.So now waiting for the results from the lab to see if I am cancer free.I do feel a bit worried and upset in case it is cancer and I don't like doctors poking and prodding me about.

[sophiebunny]

I'm a breast cancer survivor. I started a new thread. I didn't yours. Sending healing thoughts for a good outcome.

[Marylin]

Hello all, well I have an appointment at the clinic for next Wednesday 22 May.It can't be good news because at the hysteroscopy the doctor said all looks normal and she didn't think there was any cancer that she was discharging me back to my GP and would send a letter with the results of the biopsy.But now they want to see me in person in clinic,it can only be bad news.Or it could be because the lining of my womb is too thin at 3mm,doctor did say that,perhaps they want to put me on HRT,they might say I am a cancer risk,not that I actually have cancer.I don't know to be honest but it has scared me the fact they have called me back into clinic.I will have to wait until next wednesday to find out what is actually going on.I feel like crap,anything to do with doctors depresses me!Wish me luck folks!

[Marylin]

It's Monday today,I only have until 9am Wednesday morning to find out what they want to see me at gynecology clinic about.I am waiting for biopsy results.Fingers crossed,God willing,I haven't got cancer?

[saidso]

Will be thinking of you on Wednesday at 9 am!!

[Marylin]

Well I am at the clinic tomorrow.Today I has some news has made me extra anxious.Last time I had cancer my mum did too,she had womb cancer and had a hysterectomy.She is under the eye clinic for her eyes and she is almost blind.they took a sample to check at the lab from her eyes and they have found malignant cancer cells,they are coming either from her blood or elsewhere in her body,so mum has cancer again.I am worried I have it too but mum's condition isn't hereditary.We don't know if she will have an MRI or treatment,mum says she doesn't want to get seriously ill and suffer so even if she has it she will refuse chemo,she wants to live pain free and go peacefully,she is 87 years old.I am very upset but am powerless.It has sent me into deep depression and being alone it makes it worse,I have no one to comfort me.It has made me anxious about the results of my biopsy.I am worried and deeply upset.

[saidso]

Well your mum is 87 and it's normal at that age to dream about going peacefully without too many distressing interventions. I want that for myself too.
You are not your mum so important not to project too much about yourself on her illness. It's understandable that you feel scared and alone waiting for tomorrow's diagnosis.

[Marylin]

Hello saidso, thank you for your reply.I know mum is a lot older than me,she also has Charles Bonnet syndrome.I wish her to stay pain free and go peacefully too.It is just that we both got cancer at the same time last time around 2016.You are absolutely right I mustn't project my mum's illness onto my situation.All the other markers came back clear and the doctor that did the biopsy said it looked normal in my womb and she didn't think there was any cancer,but that has left me wondering why they called me back into clinic.Yes thanks for understanding I am scared and anxious about tomorrow.

[Marylin]

I had a horrendous day today.I had gynaecology clinic today.

Some of you will know the book The Celestine Prophecy,where events repeat in circles until you take a different step to before, during a cycle ,one that honours the synchronicity in the cycle,that will set you on a more healthy and honourable path.So today was a repeat of last time I had the cancer scare,it was precancerous cells last time and the nasty doctors tried to lie and say it was cancer and frighten me into having a hysterectomy.

Today it was a nasty bully of a woman doctor,arrogant and stubborn and trying to convince me the lab results which showed precancerous cells also indicated cancer,what she said was they can't rule out cancer and the lab says there is a high probability there is cancer there.Which doesn't make sense,they can't confirm cancer is there but they can't confirm it isn't there.What they have found is pre-cancer or hyperplasia.

So I don't know if they have found pre- cancerous cells of if it is just thickening of the lining of the womb which can become cancer,last time my womb was thick at 5mm. This time it was thin at 3mm , so it's not hyperplasia so they must have found precancerous cells but that isn't cancer.

The lesson according to the book ,The Celestine Prophecy,is to do the anti cancer diet and change my lifestyle to a healthy one,stop eating junk and eat fresh foods and vegetables all the time and exercise and lose weight,get diabetes and blood sugars under control.

The nasty doctor wanted me to have a hysterectomy so I refused,they then said to have an MRI,no point if its precancer,then she said see what the MRI shows and we can do a D&C scrape and get more cells to test and then give you the Mirena coil to introduce hormones and this will slow down the progression of the cancer.It is assumed the precancerous cells will become cancer and spread.Whereas NHS advice is that no one can guarantee that pre cancerous cells will turn into cancer and indeed they may not become cancer at all.

So I was emotionally bullied and I was lied to by this doctor.I wrote to her saying so told her I had no confidence in her as a doctor, that like last time they had lied and exaggerated the biopsy results,fear mongering to frighten me to agreeing to have a hysterectomy.I told her I would not have the MRI and I was discharging myself from her and her team and seeking to see my GP to be referred elsewhere for a second opinion.

I spent all day feeling beaten up emotionally and in deep distress.I hated myself and my life,I felt manipulated,used and abused,I did not feel like a human with a spirit,just a body ,an income,money and profit for the medical mafia.I knew that doctor did not care if I lived or died ,indeed she was glad she could show cause that my life was under threat so she could make money pretending to save it,which she was not doing only robbing me of my organ in order to further her career and income.This was everything about this world that I hated and despised and she was the kind of person in this world that I detested.

Anyway I had a rotten stinking day,I feel I have been treated appallingly.To make things worse my narc sister was pretending to be sympathetic and on my side but then said I should have the Mireno coil cos I could get cancer and die,so much for being on my side.I was scared today and I felt so alone and at war with the powers that be.I managed to calm myself down after I wrote that nasty doctor a letter and discharged myself.I am more at peace now but I am still upset.I had been upset since 9am this morning and it is 7.42 pm now.I am not going to feel better tonight,I am still going to be upset tomorrow and I am going to feel unimportant and that I don't matter for quite a while yet.

[saidso]

I insisted on being re-referred through the NHS for something more minor than cancer (a tooth extraction where the NHS dentist wanted me to sign a disclaimer regarding damage to adjacent teeth - I have extensive mouth/ jaw damage due to an auto accident).

It was a little difficult to convince the dental surgery to re-refer (mainly the admin, the dentist was ok about it) but it was the best thing that I ever did for my dental health. My tooth was extracted by a different provider exactly two seconds after I sat down on the chair. No problem at all, and not a hint of damage to surrounding teeth.

The disclaimer wasn't the only bizarre thing that happened with the original consultant...

I'm sorry that dealing with the erratic UK health system takes up so much emotional energy. Glad that your results were not too alarming, but yes you might want better information to decide how to proceed with treatment.

[Marylin]

I sent a letter to that nasty doctor today telling her I doubted her honesty and I would not be remaining as her patient,I discharged myself and told her that I would seek a second opinion from another doctor.I said I was disturbed,shocked and disappointed by her behaviour.I feel better now and I have no fear,I know she lied and that I do not have cancer.

[Travelinglady]

Good for you, Marilyn!

Oh Marilyn,

how deeply unpleasant and stressful and frightening for you! I am so sorry that you had such an experience. Your second opinion idea sounds wonderful!!!

May I ask what type of cells they were referring to....uterine, cervical, ovarian?

I too have noted the absolutely crazy obsession that the medical establishment has with "pre-cancerous cells." Pre-cancer DOES NOT equal cancer. Our bodies are strange and complex at times. They do all sorts of odd things which show up on tests and do not actually result in disease or death.

I had a scare myself once, based on doctor's responses to routine tests....I was so scared. I already live with PTSD and the whole experience was anxiety-provoking. They took 4 biopsies last time. The time before that was just two so I was terrified that something was really wrong. Then all 4 biopsies came back completely NORMAL. What a load of nonsense! it's like they are so afraid of lawsuits or missing cancer that's truly there that they've gone completely hypervigilant in the other direction. They want me to go back in a year for more tests and I'll be telling them to take a hike. They can wait two years. I have no symptoms. I take care of myself and my biopsies were normal. Come on people. Dial it back!

Marilyn, do you have a kind friend or family member who can sit with you and give you a hug or make you a hot drink? You need some comfort and support after such an ordeal. If nobody is available, please try to do it for yourself. Be good and kind to yourself and do something to make yourself smile. YOU DESERVE IT!!!

I will be continuing to wish you peace, hope, and a bright future! Ps. if you are interested in holistic health options (really helped me) just let me know.

Originally Posted by Marylin

In 2016 I had post menopausal bleeding and they investigated and found a cancerous polyp.I refused a hysterectomy and did the surveillance route and ate salads and all foods I discovered were anti cancer and I got the all clear in six months.Now I have the same symptoms except no pain,just bleeding down below.I am hoping it is just a non cancerous polyp or fibroid.In any case I am going to see the doctor on Thursday and I am starting back on the anti cancer foods diet.I am disappointed,I haven't been eating healthy and shouldn't have allowed this to happen.I suspect it is due to me having aspartame in diet coke,I have been drinking that stuff for about a year and last time it was the same I was drinking the diet coke for a year before I was tested for the cancer and I had it.Aspartame is a toxic poison,but I was struggling with diabetes and sweeteners seemed to be a solution instead of sugar,but neither is good for you.So be warned diet coke is bad for you folks!

It's weird to get cancer again when I am in a similar inner state to last time I had it,I felt my life was lonely and hard and I wasn't sure whether I was going to live or die.I decided back in 2016 that I wanted to live and so it gave me the opportunity to learn with God's guidance all that I needed to do to cure cancer,such wonderful knowledge,and once healed what so I do,go back to eating foods that are bad for me.When will I learn?Anyway I am feeling again I am not sure if I want to go on living and God gives me a choice ,do what you need to be healthy and live or die.I am back to Square One.Luckily I have Chris Wark's book,How To Beat Cancer.I followed his program last time and beat it!I can do it again but I am tired,do I want to live?I don't know if I do have cancer but it's likely that I do.

People do not cause their own cancer. It is not someone's fault if they get cancer. Sure, diet coke is not the healthiest thing in the world but your body and it's immune system are so much more complex than that. Your physical illness is more likely correlated with emotional trauma than what you eat. And that's not your fault either. It's always good to follow a healthy diet but most folks aren't 100% with that. Give yourself a break, will you please? Start being kind and patient with yourself. Body, mind, and spirit are communicating with you. They aren't wrong or bad. You aren't wrong or bad. There are ways to improve one's health....self-torture is not one of them Breathe. Slow down. Catch your breath.

I hope this helps. I think Dr. Gabor Mate really speaks truth and logic. His comments remind me of my sister who was treated for breast cancer during her marriage to an awful husband. She is now divorced and her cancer is also cured. 6 years later. Cured!