[puzzclar]

I read the MRI report on my wrist. It said there is a tear on the pinky side by ulna bone. I see the doctor tomorrow in about 12 hours. I am practicing living in the moment, and not going to catastrophe.

15 years ago, I had my first tear. Had surgery just before Thanksgiving. That was my first semester of undergrad, also had a grandfather pass 1 month earlier.

For 6 weeks, I've expected the worse. Now, I'm seeing how much I go to the worse case scenarios.

Time to sleep.

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[Yaowen]

So sorry you are going through that. I can't even imagine how stressful and fearsome things must seem. If I were in your shoes I would be an absolute nervous wreck. I wish you only the best tomorrow!
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[puzzclar]

Referral to a specialist. In a week. While I wait for work to decide what will happen. It isn't a good long term option, I feel lost. 5 years ago a friend said I should apply for disability. I did but then said no this is destroying me.

My anxiety has been higher, and I don't know what to do, or what's possible anymore. It's one thing or another, more and more obstacles. Waiting a week after waiting 6 weeks for the MRI that I knew would be needed, just seems like forever.

I'm sitting on the floor eating candy because I feel overwhelmed and confused. At least I'm not using a different behavior. Distress isn't even the right word anymore, yet people still use it. A wrist issue for some can mean nothing will ever be the same. And that's what it's meant to me. Depression and this wrist have been around... Or at least diagnosed about the same amount of time. And to get hurt again after burning out from compassion fatigue, I want to just hide.

Sorry if this doesn't make sense, as nothing does to me anymore.

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