[SorryShaped]

Yep that's what it is. There's a "mass of blood vessels" on one lobe of my thyroid. However, the first available appointment isn't until November. I've known about the growth since early last month.
How do I process and cope with this? I'm doing everything I can to put away the fact that I'm freaked out about it in every way.
Eeeeeppp

Usually blood vessels on a lobe like that can indicate a benign tumor on the thyroid gland. If the lobe is cancerous, you don't have to go the conventional route with radiation. You can seek out alternative therapies for thyroid cancer. I would start researching alternative treatments to prepare yourself for November's follow-up appointment. If it was cancerous, you'd know that already. But you don't mention that in your post.

I know if it were me, I'd go the cannabis oil route. Most papillary thyroid cancers are 100% curable. You'll be given the option of having your thyroid removed (but you'll still take hormone replacement for the thyroid), which includes the lobe that is covered in blood vessels (which are there to feed the benign/cancerous tumor).

I know women who've had papillary thyroid cancer and who avoided radiation and iodine treatment and went the alternative route and had their thyroid cancer healed, even without it being removed. But you need to do your research and read medical journals too, regarding your symptoms.

Like, here http://www.calgarycmmc.com/cancerthyroid.htm and here http://hypothyroidmom.com/reefer-mad...yroid-disease/

You just need to comb through the internet and thyroid medical journals in the U.S., and Canada and the UK and the Netherlands to find research that supports alternative treatments vs. traditional treatments (that tend to have more serious side effects than alternative).

[SorryShaped]

There was an ultrasound as the only test. Mood problems are crazy lately. The more journals I read the worse I worry. Cancer of several types is rampant in my family. CBD isn't for me, it just feels awful. They get one shot at radiation and one shot at surgery. Beyond that, I'm done. It's the not knowing that's getting me the most

Originally Posted by SorryShaped

There was an ultrasound as the only test. Mood problems are crazy lately. The more journals I read the worse I worry. Cancer of several types is rampant in my family. CBD isn't for me, it just feels awful. They get one shot at radiation and one shot at surgery. Beyond that, I'm done. It's the not knowing that's getting me the most

So you've already tried CBD? How did it make you feel? It's a lot safer than the radiation with iodine treatment. Its side effects are minimal; dry mouth, feeling light headed, feeling really relaxed, slower thinking, mild hypotension (low blood pressure), some dizziness. https://ministryofhemp.com/blog/cbd-oil-side-effects/

It could be the purity of the CBD oil that you were given, that gave you undesirable side effects. The more pure the CBD oil, the less side effects.

The side effects of radiation with iodine: https://www.mskcc.org/cancer-care/pa...ient-treatment

The worry I have for myself (if I ever get in this situation due to my own thyroid disorder) is how well or not well my body would clear the iodine contrast used to treat thyroid cancer. But if you know deep down you want to use the two shots treatment then go that route.

Worrying about the unknown is futile, I've learned, even though I still sometimes do it. Worrying about what I can control is a lot easier, than worrying about what I can't control. When I start to worry like that, I distract myself, find others to talk to, go for walks, time myself ("Ok, I will worry like crazy today, and that's it!"), make a decision about what I'm worrying about (even if its about the unknowns), or just find things to busy myself with (cleaning, writing, emailing, chatting on PC central).

My mood problems stem from my unbalanced hormones and vitamin and mineral deficiencies that happen due to thyroid problems, and my low iron levels. It's really frustrating to have to take vitamin and mineral supplements, knowing they may or may not work. I have malabsorption problems with my digestion due to my thyroid disease. I can't absorb nutrients and it's really frustrating.

Anyway, your mood swings could be due to the thyroid nodule with the blood vessels, or you could be vitamin or mineral deficient. Did you get those levels checked yet?

[SorryShaped]

Originally Posted by cielpur

So you've already tried CBD? How did it make you feel? It's a lot safer than the radiation with iodine treatment. Its side effects are minimal; dry mouth, feeling light headed, feeling really relaxed, slower thinking, mild hypotension (low blood pressure), some dizziness. https://ministryofhemp.com/blog/cbd-oil-side-effects/

It could be the purity of the CBD oil that you were given, that gave you undesirable side effects. The more pure the CBD oil, the less side effects.

The side effects of radiation with iodine: https://www.mskcc.org/cancer-care/pa...ient-treatment

The worry I have for myself (if I ever get in this situation due to my own thyroid disorder) is how well or not well my body would clear the iodine contrast used to treat thyroid cancer. But if you know deep down you want to use the two shots treatment then go that route.

Worrying about the unknown is futile, I've learned, even though I still sometimes do it. Worrying about what I can control is a lot easier, than worrying about what I can't control. When I start to worry like that, I distract myself, find others to talk to, go for walks, time myself ("Ok, I will worry like crazy today, and that's it!"), make a decision about what I'm worrying about (even if its about the unknowns), or just find things to busy myself with (cleaning, writing, emailing, chatting on PC central).

My mood problems stem from my unbalanced hormones and vitamin and mineral deficiencies that happen due to thyroid problems, and my low iron levels. It's really frustrating to have to take vitamin and mineral supplements, knowing they may or may not work. I have malabsorption problems with my digestion due to my thyroid disease. I can't absorb nutrients and it's really frustrating.

Anyway, your mood swings could be due to the thyroid nodule with the blood vessels, or you could be vitamin or mineral deficient. Did you get those levels checked yet?

All my blood levels are checked, full panel, once a year. My primary care just sucks. They kept upping the med and then asking me if I was taking it because my levels were still of the chart. I made them get me a specialist.
CBD made me nauseous. I may have had too much. I never had that effect back when I used to use the other parts of the related same plant.

Originally Posted by SorryShaped

Yep that's what it is. There's a "mass of blood vessels" on one lobe of my thyroid. However, the first available appointment isn't until November. I've known about the growth since early last month.
How do I process and cope with this? I'm doing everything I can to put away the fact that I'm freaked out about it in every way.
Eeeeeppp

I would call them back and ask for an earlier appointment and explain your obviously concerned about cancer and you feel it is urgent. Doctors always keep slots open for emergency. If they still say no go to the er and fake some symptoms to get a better examination. It is your life. Take guerrilla tactics to keep it.

[Shazerac]

If I was a worried about this as you areI would push for an earlier appointment. Maybe they can put you on call for a cancellation. Or like Emily said do to the ER. November is pretty is a long way to be scared.

Maybe your thyroid medication dose is too high. I know when my endocrinologist upped my thyroid medication, it made me crazy aka hyper-thyroid (anxiety attacks, racing heart, sweating profusely, couldn't eat, couldn't sleep). Took me 3 weeks of a lower thyroid medication dose to get back to normal and stop feeling like I was going crazy.

Get yourself on the cancellation list. Or, make an appointment with a new endocrinologist. It stinks that you have to wait until November. My endo is lazy. He only does follow-up phone appointments, so I'm calling around to new endocrinology doctors to make appointments with bc I'm fed up with my sub-par healthcare.

And, if your thyroid gland is off kilter or precancerous, you need to be seen stat.

[SorryShaped]

Originally Posted by Emily Fox Seaton

I would call them back and ask for an earlier appointment and explain your obviously concerned about cancer and you feel it is urgent. Doctors always keep slots open for emergency. If they still say no go to the er and fake some symptoms to get a better examination. It is your life. Take guerrilla tactics to keep it.

My sister works for the cancer dept at the same institution and can't get results here. F HMOs

[SorryShaped]

Originally Posted by Shazerac

If I was a worried about this as you areI would push for an earlier appointment. Maybe they can put you on call for a cancellation. Or like Emily said do to the ER. November is pretty is a long way to be scared.

Again, my sister is even trying. I call the number and ask I get is the voicemail system, no matter when I call. I've been trying

[SorryShaped]

It's stuff like this that gives HMOs a bad rep

Originally Posted by SorryShaped

Again, my sister is even trying. I call the number and ask I get is the voicemail system, no matter when I call. I've been trying

Well today is a holiday. I would be super aggressive about it. Even going there in person if you have to. It is much more likely that the face liability if it is known that you are concerned about cancer and want an appointment immediately. IF they don't record that information anyplace the can pretend you weren't concerned.

[SorryShaped]

Originally Posted by Emily Fox Seaton

Well today is a holiday. I would be super aggressive about it. Even going there in person if you have to. It is much more likely that the face liability if it is known that you are concerned about cancer and want an appointment immediately. IF they don't record that information anyplace the can pretend you weren't concerned.

You are exactly saying my tomorrow after yoga. I'm going to the offices and will stand my ground. They don't know, unless they've listened to the dozen or so voicemails or read the emails my sister has sent. Hmm I think they should know

[SorryShaped]

I didn't get to go to their offices but did finally, after trying all their phone system options, get a person! I'm taking them the results of the ultrasound tomorrow along with lists of my meds and the latest TSH levels. They're supposed to go directly to the endocrinologist who will make a decision on whether to see me earlier. I also told them of my mood instabilities and that I very much am freaked out about the whole thing and my anxiety level is nearly max all the time. Crossed fingers

[Shazerac]

Your go girl... Stand up for yourself and get what you need

[SorryShaped]

Originally Posted by Shazerac

Your go girl... Stand up for yourself and get what you need

Heyyy!

I'll take the kudos, but not the girl. All dude here. I appreciate things that women do, and have been called metro and even gay, but I don't think I'm metro and for sure not gay. I'm comfortable at an art exhibit, Rocky Horror, an arboretum (crazy wild awesome story about that place, spiritual and very human connection but not sexual) or fixing my truck or playing tea party. I'm not afraid to cry and I love to laugh and love even more to make others laugh.

Originally Posted by SorryShaped

Heyyy!
I'll take the kudos, but not the girl. All dude here. .

You should get an avatar photo so we don't keep making that mistake.

[SorryShaped]

Originally Posted by Emily Fox Seaton

You should get an avatar photo so we don't keep making that mistake.

That better?

Feet... well ok.

[SorryShaped]

Originally Posted by Emily Fox Seaton

Feet... well ok.

It's me in one of my meditation places. I sit there and nobody can see me. It's better when there's cicadas. I can bliss out completely there