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Hello friends, hope this is the most appropriate section for this topic.
I am scared and worry that when I become alone and homeless (homeless more-or-less willingly, for the freedom aspect mostly) my mind and therein my functioning will decline, and I will just become like gloopy and non, or at least less functioning and capable of just simply thinking, or at LEAST possibly just back to being in a 'shell', maybe? Like, right now I feel like I'm not really afraid of much, or specifically the world and people, and like I could potentially do... more or less, within reason and realistically of course, anything I truly wanted to set my mind to, and like I can just at the very least be a part of society and function etc. Like, maybe I fear just becoming a 'recluse' again, with either depression and/or anxiety controlling and highly-influencing me at a deep, inside core level, and if not just due to other things/people, then at the very least because of my own decline in confidence, self-image, willpower, belief in myself and my capabilities etc. etc. Like, right now my outlook and aura and everything on my life is optimistic and good - and basically just happy and lucky to be alive, and if it's meant to be it's meant to be and will happen, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger, the future is uncertain and anything could happen in the blink of an eye so tomorrow and every day after could be the best day of my life, etc. etc. So I basically am happy, and have a happy outlook and attitude and feeling and everything about my life, and living, but I'm just scared or don't want any of that to change and go back to the Hellish darkness I was in before, due to whatever it could be, but specifically I think if my mind just deteriorates and like I said becomes gloopy with no day-to-day life or meaning and I can't even think to be able to function. |
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Maybe you don't have to be homeless, if it's the freedom aspect you're looking for.
Have you ever thought of living in an RV or camper? I ask because there are many Facebook group for RVers and the people seem friendly and lead a good and less-costly lifestyle. With an RV or camper, you could live on your own, but still have the chance to connect with others so you don't backslide and become a recluse. If you don't have a pet, you could also look into that as well... like a therapy dog. Get you out of yourself (head) and into your body (going for walks)... Just a thought.... |
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I've actually been homeless before too but I was much younger (around 19 or 20 or so), but I did not have a vehicle or anything, or have my own transportation etc. So now, as long as I have a vehicle, it will be a bit different and I won't have to sleep on the streets or in a shelter or anything, and if I feel like getting up and traveling to a new area I can for the most part. But like I said in my OP, my biggest worry and thing I'm scared of, is I think at the core and most basic, my mind and brain 'deteriorating' and not being able to literally even think clearly - especially/mainly considering my ability to think, concentrate, focus etc. and like I said, just my inner dialog itself and ability to even simply think in my head, is already noticeably..... a concern, at least. Like, if I'm just alone in my own head all the time again, I feel like that could be a bad thing, and although I have 100% changed and turned my life around from what/how I was back when I was in a horrible lonely blackness, I just worry that simply being alone again just in my own head all the time, with no aim in life really or anything too, it could cause me to start declining functionally again - if anything, at least due to my ability to simply think deteriorating..... |
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What type of supports do you have in place so you do not backslide into that dark mental place again?
Do you have a pdoc? Take medication? Have a psychologist? Have a social network? You need a plan that incorporates good hygienic lifestyle routines, as well as supports and a way to monitor yourself so you can reach out for help if things start to get bad for you.... you need to also have a crisis plan. You can google "putting together a mental health crisis plan" for ideas on how to put one together, or "mental health crisis checklist". |
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