Trigger Warning: I don't wanto do this anymore

Wait until they are teens. At least you have a husband. Imagine doing it by yourself. I say count your blessings. I mean at one point you wanted three kids, right? Your job is not done until they've reached adulthood . What kind of help are you getting?

I feel exactly the same way. My ds is giving my dh and I real problems now and consuming our lives. When we are driving, I look at pretty apartment buildings and think how simple and peaceful my life would be if I lived alone. But it would get lonely eventually. I won't leave because of both of my children, but I take as much time as I can get by myself. Otherwise, I would shrivel up and die. If you can get away, do it! Take a vacation by yourself!

One of my siblings & I are working on rewriting my resume....do they even use those anymore???
I need to get a job. Real job with a real income, even if that takes me away time wise, from my family. I know, where I live, I can't live on minimum wage

Is there an employment center in your county?

I think there is one yes.
My current resume is all Art related & my niche market is extremely small so I have to change my resume & make it more business like. My biggest obstacle is technology. I can use it, but not great at it.
And no I'm not going back to school again. I'm too old & no $$ for it.