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BTW Ive been threw period in my life where Ive been all these, so IDK, what it means to exactly label, BUT like through my teen years OMG I WAS BAD, but who isnt right? I was in limbo of Vivacious,Tempestuous,Disingenuous, which is probally the worst out of them all, became a christian and started my journey through healing and, became, Appeasing, Vivacious,Theatrical, but have had my times of being the other three, never really dealt with the infantile one though
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Hi honeybee, I had an epiphany! I was thinking about your question. And then I thought to myself that I was diagnosed w/HPD years ago, and of course I have wondered if I still have the disorder. Well, another thought emanated from the thoughts associated w/that. Did I ever have it? Everyone falls for their therapist, right? (Not everyone, but many many). So, yes, I did fall for my therapist, really hard. I did everything in my power to get his attention. I dressed provocatively, I used my sweetest voice, my nicest smile, all to talk about my obsession, which was him. Further, I talked about sex every session. I told him I loved him. I even asked him to have sex with me when I was completely frustrated. In the hospital, I flirted w/every sane man I could find. I was inappropriate w/a male nurse. I told my doctor in an attempt to make him jealous. He got the nurse fired for being inappropriate w/me. (I am so super sorry about that and did learn my lesson. I thought I was telling him in dr/patient confidence.) But do you see where this leads me? Of course I seem like I have HPD to him, but that is because I loved him. I am the worst when it comes to transference. I get it every time. If I had a female therapist, I would probably fall for her and think I was gay. So what do you think? Crazy? Or not?
Well, it is something to think about. I guess it doesn't matter. I am depressed today even though I have tried to feel better. TTYL honeybee. I hope you are well. -GC __________________ By Grace Claire - because Grace and Claire were both taken |
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Tbh, I hate to burst your bubble hun, but when I read through them that's one that I saw you definitely have exhibited at times.
Thing is I've seen you go through most of the traits on and off in the months we've known each other you vascillate between different things. All the time, it's about the most consistent thing about you is that you're always flopping around (for lack of a better term) |
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Mom is definitely a mix of infantile and theatrical... glad I found this page too since it totally fits her to a tee and gives me a bit of better understanding of it. Even the strike a pose thing is just like her. So disturbing.
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Hi honeybee!! Hope all is well w/you! I came across this FB cover and thought of you. (Me too of course) I sent it to my husband in a ♥ email.
The ex-bf is gone. He is not as I remembered him. I erased him and blocked him from me. Have you ever heard of limerence? That is me! Maybe you are one too. Google it and see. -GC __________________ By Grace Claire - because Grace and Claire were both taken |
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Oops! The link does not work after all, so I copied it.
Now that I have you I have nothing to fear But I always think you'll leave so I'll try to keep you near -GC __________________ By Grace Claire - because Grace and Claire were both taken Last edited by Grace Claire; Feb 10, 2013 at 03:15 AM.. Reason: Link did not work |
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Vivacious, Appeasing, and sometimes Tempestuous.
And kind of proud of it. |
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I think if looking at them Vivacious and Infantile. Would descirbe me, I can attach myself to somone I have only been dating for a few weeks really quickly and come off as overly clingy and one track minded when it comes to that person very easily. Which is odd since I am poly and have multiple partners...but I suppouse I am always looking for someone to be a primary for me.
as I have mentioned before, I don't feel like all the symptoms that are listed I do fully like how the examples are stated. But when I read through the examples I see things that remind me a lot of myself I just don't find that all the words being used to be fully true, lol but the examples I do...if that makes sense. I think after a few years I noticed I had these bad habbits and I might have just naturally told myself this was not ok. Or probably my social anxiety freaked and did not want to become embrassed by this behavior and I made myself filter it down. But I have always had issues like over flirting, coming off as clingy or needy, over sexual too much of the time (mostly just not being afriad to talk about it ,in situations it does not need to be mentioned or mentioned as freely as I do), not doing well in having same sex friendships, fixating on one person in a romatic sense to the point of akwardness from it. __________________ Dx:OCD, AD/HD-C and ADD kinda both, General Anxiety Disorder, Separation Anxiety Disorder,Abandonment Anxiety, Cycothymic disorder, or mixed bipolar, Border Line Personality Disorder,Histonic Personality Disorder, Dependent Personality disorder, eating disorder ]Rx:Lamotrigine 25mg twice a day for my mood stablizer as well as I am on Escitalopram 10mg 1 daily, Buspirone 3 times daily 10mgs VT Student, CNA student, working HHA for my father I think of you everyday |
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Vivacious and tempestuous(everyone who knows me is literally terrified of my temper), and disingenuous in the past(but don't piss me off because that side of me WILL come out!)
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Any depending on circumstances. Though the vast majority of the time specific negative beliefs about how others will react to me ensure that the BPD side of things will play the 'detached defender' card so I'll look "schizoid" to most until the negative affect related to those beliefs is in a high state of arousal, then I might reach out to someone looking for them to contradict those beliefs then get shot down because i deserve to be numb or something. At which point I go from "schizoid" to the angriest they have ever seen another human being because I feel I'm being told that I don't deserve to feel, need or be valued as a human being.
Does anyone else have to deal with HPD drugging them when you fight it? It usually feels like some mix of ecstasy and morphine for me and gets worse the harder I fight against it. |
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Any, highly circumstantial. Mostly I'm numb for the BPD side of things.
Does anyone else have to deal with their HPD getting them high if they fight it? It usually feels like a combination of ecstasy and morphine for me and gets worse the harder I fight against it. |
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