Denied for Pre-Existing Mental Illness

I applied to CoventryOne, Anthem Bluecross, and United Healthcare. I was denied by all three because I was honest and said I was bi-polar and a few other things. WHY???

I can't keep paying these exorbanant costs of healthcare and hospitalizations (several times per year) out of my pocket. I don't know what to do, who to turn too. I'm not considered disabled, nor do I want to be. I can hold down a decent job for now, but even that is getting hard. I just want to snap and reach through the phone to the insurance agent, break his neck and put him through a woodchipper.

I also don't exactly have a home anymore. I've been homeless for 3 months. Not typical homeless, but I don't have a permanent residence. I live out of my Tractor Trailer. My itty bitty studio on wheels.

My company insurance doesn't even offer mental health coverage, because I'm not supposed to be mentally ill in the first place. (Feds say I can't be mentally ill and have a CDL).

I don't know what to do, but I am getting more and more enraged, Irrational thoughts are getting stronger, and suicidal thoughts have entered my mind lately, however they thankfully exited at the same speed they entered.

Any thoughts on where I may be able to turn?

Pre-Existing Condition Insurance Plan (PCIP)

http://www.healthcare.gov/law/provis...ing/index.html

If you feel very bad just go to an emergency room they must treat you.