New and need someone to talk me down

Hi. I suffer from depression. I have been on disability for about 4 years now. Lately, maybe in the past few months, I've been feeling a bit better. I don't really know why. Because of this, I am feeling scared that disability will be taken away when it's time for my case to be reviewed because of this progress. I've googled and see that SSA will give me two months of pay after they deny me. If they deny me, I guess I should say. It feels like a foregone conclusion. On top of this, I have no idea when the review will happen and this leaves me feeling like the shoe could drop at any moment. It could be months before I come up for review or years. I feel like I need some amount of a heads up so I can get myself situated and start looking for a job in case they deny me. Social security is really my main source of income. I am a single mom of 3 kids and losing SSDI would be a huge blow. It terrifies me. In addition to this I am completely overwhelmed at the idea of working.

I have been obsessing ever since I googled for information about the review process. I can't get it out of my mind. I don't know how to rid myself of these feelings of dread and fear. I feel so afraid and helpless. It's like I'm going to be punished for feeling somewhat better even though I'm not quite where I need to be to hold onto a job.

I'm sorry this is long and maybe hasn't made much sense. Thanks for reading.

Has anyone been through this and have any input? What I really need are ways to calm the heck down and I really need to find some security in all of this. I don't know where else to go with this. I need help.

I think it is wonderful you are feeling better. I know what you mean about not wanting to work. It's so hard to work while suffering from depression. My job makes my depression soooo much worse. Just thinking about that depresses me even more. Maybe you can emphasize how you want to get over your depression without having to get a job which will just make your depression worse. And you're a mom and all. Explanation is the key, don't you think?

I know how you feel I'm on disability and I've had to do the review thing once before. It's not a big deal, mostly social security is just checking on to see that your trying to deal with your disability. If your still seeing a doctor on a regular basis for help you should be ok.