Would you be okay if you were wealthy?

There have been times in my life when I literally knew I would destroy myself if I had a lot of money. I would have engaged in a lot of self-destructive behavior. And I would have used the money to try to get some petty payback. In the past I fantasized about hiring someone to make someone else's life miserable. I thought about making making sure the other had a bad day. Say, by just having my someone get in verbal fights with the other. And/or I've fantasized about hiring private investigators to dig up any dirt I could find. <-- but I regret those thoughts. That isn't my true self. I've never even tried to do anything of the sort with what little power I do have. Never even tried to find out the latest gossip about people I am in conflict with.

I'm trying to convince myself that I'm in a better place now, and that I would be okay if I started making a lot of money. Not many of my family members have much money, and I'd enjoy helping them as much as I could, without making them dependent on me. If there was enough money, maybe it would be best to just give everyone in my immediate family a salary. If I had a lot of money, I can think of things I could do anonymously in my own community to make it a better place.

I'd use the money I had to be a little more reclusive... to get out of the limelight as much as possible, and just enjoy doing good things without making a big deal of it.

What about you? Would you be okay with a lot of money, or would you engage in self-destructive behavior, and/or use the money to do things that you'd later regret?

I don't know... having lots of money always sounds great! But it seems like people who have it often end up with more problems than I, at least, have. Somehow it's never quite as easy as staying out of the limelight & helping those who are less fortunate. Someone is always trying to figure out a way of snookering you out of what you have. My spouse & I are fortunate at this point in that we're both retired. So it's easy for us to stay out of the limelight. I'm particularly adept at it. If I did have money though, I don't think I would use it to engage in self-destructive behavior. I'd probably just hide it somewhere & keep doing what I do...

I would give it away where its really needed. As long as I have a roof over my head, some savings, daily bread and a computer; Im safe on this plane of existence.

It would be great to invest it in fighting the Kthulu shadows from invading my mind...

...or fund an organization devoted to bring more equilibrium on the planet. I also feel threatened by all the stupid forces at work in this world...

I would give anything to be financially well off right now. No more worrying about not being able to provide for myself and no more having to work boring jobs or work extra hard at college.

I would love to just become a multimillionaire so I could buy a tiny house with full solar power and buy the piece of land so I never have to pay rent or worry about homelessness again and use the rest of my money to change the world and follow my passions.

I had an inheritance and spent it all getting this stupid house fixed. Don't know what I would do now. Buy a new house and a bunch of pretty stuff and travel around the world, I suppose.

I'm not good with money. My husband handles the finances and he does a good job with it.

Being homeless at one point, I can appreciate being able to support oneself. Having a steady income at this point, I can now save a lot of it to prevent this from happening in the future, paranoid you could say, because I know it can all be gone in a moment. I would not like to have to worry though and to take that pressure off, I would like to have a cushion.

If I had more, I could put more towards retirement, continue to donate to the various charities that helped me, give to others that I would like to be able to support, and put even more for my niece's and nephew's futures. I would be ok if I were wealthy because savings is always at the top of the list. I would keep doing what I am doing for work though as long as I possibly can, well, because I am definitely financially paranoid.

It completely boggles my mind that most lottery winners are broke within 2 years. I can comprehend how it happens but it breaks my heart.

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No. I was wealthy when I became disabled.

I might not be mentally or physically "better" but I would sure have a lot of my immediate problems taken care of. No medical bills would be piling up, no debt, I could feed myself, and invest in activities I enjoy and causes I believe in. I would probably have trouble using harder drugs if I had the money for them though.

I would help my family and friends, and do things that would make me feel wonderful.

Money wouldn't cure my issues, but it would make dealing with them easier.

I would see my therapist much more often.
I would not work and do something I believe has a real purpose to me (most likely work with, rehabilitate and nurture animals) and spend more time on being creative.

Here and there, I may indulge a little more in drinking and binge eating, but I think I would mostly use the money for good things, aside from some frustration shopping, maybe.

No, money could not get me a new pancreas, liver, kidneys and GI system. It can pay for the pain killers and the mental health drugs but nothing else.

I would not want to have something like 100 millions. I wouldn't know what to do with it. It would probably destroy my life. I'd want enough to maintain my current, familiar, modest, lifestyle with few minor improvement (like moving to a mild climate) and to be able to afford decent medical care, but without having to work. I would not want to change much in my life, get used to new things, etc.

Would that make me happy? Possibly. Money buys comfort and security and I lack both at the time.

It would defiantly open my life to better health care.

I would love to travel and experience new things mind and body willing.

I wish I were wealthy, money is power. I would be able to afford my own place like a hobby farm and help to maintain it. I would continue to work on songwriting because it's a way to release emotions and develop myself creatively. I could pay off my mom's house for all she's done for me. Maybe even my brother's. I would do some traveling, see places I'd like to see. Maybe own a 2nd home in a southern state for winter. Along with nice cars. I used to say I start a business and employ people if I won the lottery but really I'm more selfish than that.

Money is important in this this capitalistic society. However, I don't think money is everything. I need it to buy certain items but it can't buy me a new brain nor give me back the years I lost to mental illness. Thus, I don't place that much value on money itself but on what it can do to improve other people's lives. I have been homeless without money and know that money can provide shelter and food. I know that money can buy me nice things. But, money is not worth fighting over and stealing if one has enough of the basics. Money itself is not evil but the love of money could be evil. I'd rather be poor which I am and be happy with the small things in life than be rich and have many things but no satisfaction from them.

I wouldn't be cured, that's for sure. Maybe it would help with health care.

I think it would help, and maybe I'd be better. But money doesn't make trauma go away.

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i don't and would never want to be wealthy. if i were just able to comfortably live, be able to afford that basic bottom of the needs hierarchy without worry, it would solve a portion of my problems. but it wouldn't help anybody else. win me the lottery and i would just buy my mom a house, put myself through college and donate the rest. the wealth hoarding in this world is demonic, it's a plague, it's killing the world.

I heard a reference to "that great religion of the world" recently. They were talking about capitalism.

I do want to focus on kindness and gentleness.