[Jamie21]

a=AV been repressing my gender as i have been going to a church that is charismatic the only person that knows about my gender is the minters wife
she been very understanding
But am worried how other members of the church would react
I was born female but sometimes am male sometimes am female and am somewhere in the middle ...if i tell them they might not talk to me again
or they might tell me to go to somewhere else

My family think am over my transgender phase they think am just confused
Also i cant find any clothes for me as male or as in the middle
i have a binder but i still look like am female its because am obese
i hate my body

Sorry that you're going through this. I'm not gay or transgender, so I can't relate to your specific situation (and I'm not going to pretend to relate), but I hope my advice helps.

Anywayy..

It's bothersome to hear that your parents think you're going through a "phase" and that they think you're "confused". I have to ask: are your parents in denial? Or do they just not understand? Either way, I think you definitely need to talk to your parents somehow to make them understand you're transgender. Right now it doesn't sound like they understand at all.

As for your church, I personally wouldn't worry about what they think. If they dislike you simply because you're transgender, then they're ignorant and they're simply not worth your time. The people who matter in life are people who don't judge you for who you are. You don't want to be friends with hateful people anyway. Surround yourself with people who love and care for you no matter what you look like.

And what do you mean by you "can't find any clothes"? You can't find clothes you don't like? Sorry, I guess I'm not understanding what you specifically mean.