[Keyplayer]

Hi Guy`s ,

As many of you know and if not after reading this you will know and that is fine

I am transgender male to female /// biological male I have all the wrong parts for me , but there was way to much going on in my younger years , stuff that is just now starting to surface through inner child work with my therapist .

I came out to her on Sept 27th 2017 , I was so scared , before I even finished telling her she broke in and told me to just calm down // take a few deep breaths and it will be ok .

It was , but after telling her , the next day when I woke up it was the first time in almost 65 years I could actually not lie to me anymore , and it was great .

I knew and know now probably nothing in the way of transitioning will ever happen , but we can`t say what will happen tomorrow or the next day.

I try to be a kind person , one who would go out of there way to help , but would I help me , hell no , I still have a confidence issue , as in there isn`t any , not just low or lacking , just no happening confidence issue.

Anyway if some of you reading this have ever visited the Creative Corner you will find what I at first called phrases , I have no frame of reference what to call them .
One day I decided to Google what I do as far as my writing , it is Free Verse style of writing that I do . OK so what does that have to do with tell your doc. ???

I am getting to that

My doc does not really know that much about me although he has been my physician for nearly 20 years , that is all he is. Not a friend , not someone who truly cares.

Last year for my yearly meeting to get my meds , I told him I was seeing a therapist , he said " OK , but I am concerned about your blood pressure and your weight is a little off " I felt like say , I think you are a little off !!

He did not ask why I was see a T or how it was going or can I help , you know stuff a normal doc would ask a patient .

So here I am with a quandary , if my free verse writing becomes more than a way to help others on line , as in actually getting published , that would mean money , and that would mean a possible strat to transition

So how do I tell him . thanks ,

Keyplayer 

[Skeezyks]

I'm sorry. Perhaps I'm just old. (Well we know that's true.) But I'm unclear as to what you're asking here. Personally I avoid doctors like the plague as much as possible. But based on what experience I do have your doctor's performance, as you describe it at the end of your post, sounds normal to me. It would even have been normal in terms of how my former psychiatrist would have handled one of my (brief) appointments. I'd be absolutely amazed if I ever went in to see a doctor & they had any interest at all in anything beyond whatever it was I went in to see them about to begin with. It's really not their faults as individuals or as professionals. The practice of medicine nowadays is just a production line. The only thing that's missing is the conveyor belt.

[Keyplayer]

Hi Skeezyks ,

LOL , me too , but I need to get my meds refilled , so I need to see my doc , no choice.

I so understand the avoiding doc`s thing

I am talking about my medical doc , he treats me for my anxiety , and I just feel it is time he knew the truth.

I am kind'a on a crusade this year to end all stigmas , the time has come , no more hiding !!

I am being more open with my MI and would like to be with how I consider myself to truly be , still working on that part , up here it is not a trans friendly state

Every state needs to be and should be , we have every right to live has our brains are wired to live.

Guy parts that I never wanted and all I have had was issues all my life , don`t have time anymore !!

Have a great day , and thanks

KP 