[StitchIsAwesome135]

Hey guys,

So I have have been having some problems lately that are sort of childish. I have always been the "every else's rock type" of person that recently has seemed to change since dealing with some major depression and it has sort of culminated up to this. Over the last week or so I have been having a very hard time getting to sleep. It's like I am regressing back to being 5 years old. I can't be in a dark room lately. I have a VERY vivid imagination and I will imagine that I'm seeing things or give a mental picture to the "bumps in the night" and the such, and to go with that I also add audible sounds to those visualizations. I know that there is nothing there, and I'm not going to say that I'm actually seeing anything either, but this lack of being able to be comfortable in my own house now is causing some big problems.

Along with these problems I have been having very vivid nightmares, I don't remember any dreams that aren't nightmares and haven't for a good while now. They are getting worse and they are waking me up and disturbing me to the point that I have been sleepwalking. There has been a previous connection with fear and sleepwalking so I assume this is why it has started up again.

To be honest I don't know why I am posting this aside from the fact that it is late and again I'm sitting in a completely lit room with the tv on because when I turn the light off I know I will be thrown into a frenzy. Does anyone have any thoughts on this? Anything would be greatly appreciated.

[Gilead]

Stitch,

I don't know if it will help but I use "white noise". One of those air cleaners that creates sound - it helps to drown out the silence. The quiet always makes me think too much. It helps me might help you.

On the nightmares - mine aren't as bad anymore but it does help to figure out what they mean. I had a therapist once that really helped in defining what they meant - that helped to make them not as threatening. I'd wake up screaming for help and she was able to talk through them with me and explain what was happening.

Good luck with it.

[StitchIsAwesome135]

White noise other than a fan doesn't help. I love music but when I have it on I have to listen to it, it can't just play. Lately the fan on makes my imagination worse because I feel like it's covering up what "should" be making noise.

I thought about bringing it up to my counselor but it's not something I've been able to bring up. It really just bothers me that I am not living up to those male stereotypes that everyone loves to hate.

[mria123456]

I agree with stitch.