I'm obsessed with uniqueness

Have you ever had the feeling you're unique until you've found out that a lot of people is just like you?

I've been feeling disappointed lately. I've always thought I was kind of unique. I'm a pretty shy person. I'd rather watch a movie at home than going to parties. I like playing games. Sometimes I've even played a game so many times that I've set challenges or restrictions to make me feel I'm playing a different one. I like wearing geeky t-shirts, too. Moreover, English is not my native language but here I am, writing in English, and always willing to improve my language skills.

But which of the aforementioned things distinguishes me? I've found out that a lot of people (more than I thought) is like that. Don't take me wrong if you like doing anything I said. But I'm starting to obsess about it. I'm starting to see myself as a clone. I don't have any strong opinion about politics. I don't have a favorite music genre. I don't have a unique clothing style that doesn't make me belong to an urban tribe... It's sad, but I'm generic.


The worst thing is that I can't stop thinking about it. I'm at a point that I'm trying to find something I could change, something that I could improve... but I'm starting to change things just for the sake of change. Yesterday I made a physical change I'm not very proud of. And if you excuse me I'd rather not say what it is. Luckily it's not permanent. I liked it at first, but when I looked at myself in the mirror this morning... I was terrified. I realized I had a problem.

I'm writing this here to know other men's opinion about this. I'm not an adult, I'm in my twenties. So some of you might believe I'm too young to worry about this. But I'm afraid of not being able to change anything I should before it's too late.