[lostintransmutation]

This may sound a little mad but then, hey, "the world tis mad, save thee and me, and even thee is a little mad" so here i go...
Narcs often get together with Borderlines, codependents.. yes? and it seems that they born out of similar sets of circumstances. I think i am more than a little BPD with Narc traits as well... this ive found out only fairly recently, though i knew i was struggling with my mind and with making and keeping friends, stress etc. But a few years ago, i discovered something very weird... and that is, trauma based mind control methods. I had been reading about poor old Michael Jackson of all things, and it is fairly obvious that the guy was disturbed, traumatized..and there was mention of drowning trauma as an "anchoring" trauma to help split the victims mind, off into an alter fragment of the person, another persona that can be used to train/torture into becoming what the mk programmers need. And i started to wonder if the awful dream of drowning that I have occasionally had since i was very small, indicated that this had happened to me.. i also remembered some strange incidents that I had pushed to the back of my mind as i was growing up. Long story short, i nearly had a mental breakdown owing to the realization that not only does Trauma based mind control happen, but that this might have happened to me! Stories of mind control are often connected to Masons, and masonic lodges. Which is highly disturbing as my Dad was a mason, a grand pooh bah or whatever stupid titles they give themselves. my uncle and brother in law also were masons. There is a lot of info out there that illustrates the kinds of triggers and symbols that go with masonic mind control and the checkerboard pattern is one of teh most well known, so when i think mind control, i often picture a chess board.
So anyways, when i started staying up late and asking questions about my Dad who is long dead, my sisters had me locked up in a nuthouse for a week. i was pretty p*ssed off and angry about that, considering if what i suspected was true, then it was hardly my fault that i was feeling so distraught, and wondering about a coupla incidents where it was almost like i had dissociated for a moment, when i feel off my roller blades and nearly ripped myself a new ****... but i digress. I went into the nuthouse and they refused to talk to me, and i wanted them to so i could tell them that i think tis perfectly natural for me to be trying to find out all i could about mkultra and Monarch projects, etc. They actually seemed to be more interested in keepign me there than professionally neutral. The shrink asked me only questions about mkultra, and the CIA, of all things, and i answered her questions.. and asked her why she thought i was nuts. Her reply was that I seemed to be obsessed with mind control. I replied that since she asked me only questions about mind control for ten minutes, and failed to ask me about my many and varied interests, it seemed to me that SHE was obsessed with mind control. And then i put in the paperwork to request a tribunal so she could explain her "diagnosis" x4 with a panel of peers. That worked and i was out... Then i started looking at my Dads Welsh family and it turns out that his Mum was the illeg. daughter of some Lord, and that lord happened to be best buds with Aleister Crowley, and the pair of them were into the Black Arts (how Hogwarts) and trauma, ritual abuse mind control, including programming agents of the British secret services. So. it doesnt seem so unlikely that my Grandmother and my Dad were both trained, because this kind of mind control is Intergenerational, and theory goes, parents abuse their kids and create controllable mpd splits which most people are unaware of.
Seems likely that such trauma and stress in a childhood, could easily result in Narcissism, in guys, and BPD in women..(please excuse the gross generalizaiton) which leads me to the next question... does anyone else who identifies as having those PDs, have any memory of trauma based mind control?

and has anybody else noticed that the very stars who appear to be under mind control, such as Britney Spears or well, any Disney kid, are often described as Mpd but also, BPD?

I think the ppl who are trained to be trainers under that system, behave very narcissistically, they have to, in order to apply torture and impose their will on their slaves...
im not suggesting that everyone who deals with these PDs is under mind control. But personally i have been in relationships that were with NPDs, and i believe that I was TRIGGERED to "fall in love" wth at least one of those ppl because they used masonic trigger words. Which eerily reminds me of the Tv show Dollhouse. and interestingly, i believe that mind control slaves, when broken down, if not killed or *suicided with self harm programming, often are classified as MPD, if its obvious and their alters spin around... also broken slaves experience a state like schizophrenia, but its CAUSED by trauma, and by a life of stress and confusion, not by a pathology.