[jnt1989]

The thoughts are driving me nuts tonight!
I'm guessing its part of OCD, but I really don't know cuz I'm scared to say anything.

I got frustrated and aggravated today over a couple things. I kept playing these arguments over and over in my head. I couldn't stop. It was like all the possible arguments I could have had with my sister about the things bothering me.
I went to work and told my mom what was bothering me, and I hd to go in the bathroom to cry and was crabby with my sister all evening.
Now, I keep having thoughts about my grandpa dying. He's still alive. There was this time that he and I were watching television together and he asked me if he ended up in the hospital in the shape the guy on the show was in, would I come see him? I said I would. He means the world to me. I keep having these thoughts like... Like I'm playing a situation in my mind where he's gone and I couldn't keep my promise and couldn't be there. It's killing me.
I've been crying for I don't know how long. I have a killer headache from crying and I feel like I'm going to be physically sick from crying and trying not to absolutely just lose it!

[jnt1989]

And just like that its over. Well...I just don't even know anymore.