[rc01]

Simple things trigger my excessive thinking, determining this is what right and this is wrong like if there are 2 persons in my mind.
Unwanted thoughts and images that keep going on and going on in my mind even I know that I shouldn't think of them since they are obviously unpleasant. But then later on I'll forget not to think of them, spending probably hours or moments before I'll make sense not to think of them again.
My dyphoria triggers my imagination to show and creat hurting things because of unpleasant, inevitable events. They're related to reality, so it's rational, but I can't stop thinking of them. I've been like this for more than a year now. I've somehow manage how to coup with it, but since then I can't contain it. I want to cry and screen in some cases, and when worst I feel like laughing inside because I can't control my mind of thinking anymore. My thinking is reasonable, but I can't stop it just like the unstopable situation of my life.
I don't want to disclose anything else. I just want to determine for sure if it's OCD.

[carrie_ann]

hi rc01, you really need to go see your doctor for a proper disgnosis. good luck.