So my dad asked about my grades etc and was very disappointed. I've given up on everything, job, school, further because I'm a perfectionist and if I can't have it all, I wan nothing..

I told my mom that I was depressed with anxiety and OCD and she told my dad. My mom doesn't understand OCD and neither does my dad especially..

My dad cares and wants me to get help but he thinks that I'm a psyco when I told him some of my symptoms.

Yes I do think about killing my mom or my sister in the most disturbing ways imaginable but that's because I don't want too.. Its always the opposite of what I normally think.

Everyone is telling me to work or do something but I really can't.

I feel like I'm just going to go to therapy so someone can tell me to get off of my *** and do what I want t do and that's exactly what's going to happen. I'll feel the exact same, except now it's with no dignity as a result from telling people how i feel..

This is just something to say initially. I will post here again and say if things have got better or not..

[Travelinglady]

I read another one of you posts and I see what's basically happening. But you can post here again if you want!