[Grey Matter]

I know some people will see it as paranoid thinking, and it may as well be. But I can't keep these thoughts out of my head. I keep thinking I am going to be taken away, but I also keep visualizing these horrible things happening people. I think the surgery triggered me because I haven't been able to stop these thoughts no matter how many rituals I do.

TW: Surgery, stitches, blood

For example I keeping having these intrusive thoughts that consist of "what would happen if you pulled at your stitches?" "pull at your stitches" etc etc. I know WHAT would happen, which is why I haven't, but these thoughts are awful. I can't stand it. I have no idea how to cope with these thoughts right now.

[IowaFarmGal]

That sounds horrible! Can you distract yourself with a movie or something? Hugs!

[IchbinkeinTeufel]

I get thoughts like that, too. A while back, when I broke my hand, I used to get unpleasant thoughts with that. I obsessed over clenching my first, moving my hand, or taking the cast off, and in the end, the stress that entailed, caused me to twitch my hand/arm so much, that the broken bone slipped out of the place the surgeon put it in, and then it healed badly; I now get sometimes quite a bit of pain, a fair bit of discomfort, and limited movement, from it. Nun ja. I hope your "moment" (as I call them) passes, soon. I believe, I do feel your pain, figuratively speaking.

[ocdwifeofsociopath]

oh that's what i do too! I hate it cause i gross and creep myself out. makes me shudder and cringe ;[ I just shake myself out of it when I can and continue on with what I was doing. I don't know how else to stop them other than my meds being on time and not getting stressed or too little sleep. sorry

[Stockbroker]

I understand completely because i have been there. First you have to truly accept that these thoughts arent going to disappear completely. I know you want them to go away badly!!

They key is to learn how to "watch" your thoughts and realize they are just your brain talking, not YOU. Google: mindfulness for ocd

Also, get plenty of sleep, exercise, eat healthy, drink water! Your brain needs good healthy habits.

Try and smile often

[Grey Matter]

Thanks guys <3

It has been getting easier. It's just... still there. Stuck in my head on a loop. The volume has just gotten some what lower. Its just so frustrating, I have black and blue knuckles from banging on things 12 times to get the thoughts out.

[Missy Muffet]

My son has struggled with intrusive thoughts for a few years. He was only taking antianxiety medication. For the most part, he could handle his intrusive thoughts until they became unbearable when he recently became depressed and his anxiety and OCD increased. The doctor put him on the antidepressant Zoloft. As we slowly increased the dosage, his intrusive thoughts subsided.

Basically, I'm telling you to seek medication if you're not already taking it. My son is also learning how to not OCD latch onto these thoughts and have mental horror compulsions over them. He understands these thoughts don't mean he's a bad person and that he's not likely to do them. He is so horrified by the thoughts and that's why he OCDs about them because he tries to fight them. Everyone has these awful thoughts, and just brushes them aside. But people with OCD fixate on them and can't let them go. So part of it is learning how to acknowledge the thought and let it float away. Easier said than done. But that will help you much better than distraction---like a movie or video game.

Please know you're not alone. Talk to your doctor. There is hope. Good luck to you.

[IchbinkeinTeufel]

Just came back from my 3rd OCD therapy session, with my psychologist, and am fighting my way through my intrusive thoughts. My thoughts (none-intrusive ones) are with people like me, who suffer this blight.

[Grey Matter]

Originally Posted by Missy Muffet

My son has struggled with intrusive thoughts for a few years. He was only taking antianxiety medication. For the most part, he could handle his intrusive thoughts until they became unbearable when he recently became depressed and his anxiety and OCD increased. The doctor put him on the antidepressant Zoloft. As we slowly increased the dosage, his intrusive thoughts subsided.

Basically, I'm telling you to seek medication if you're not already taking it. My son is also learning how to not OCD latch onto these thoughts and have mental horror compulsions over them. He understands these thoughts don't mean he's a bad person and that he's not likely to do them. He is so horrified by the thoughts and that's why he OCDs about them because he tries to fight them. Everyone has these awful thoughts, and just brushes them aside. But people with OCD fixate on them and can't let them go. So part of it is learning how to acknowledge the thought and let it float away. Easier said than done. But that will help you much better than distraction---like a movie or video game.

Please know you're not alone. Talk to your doctor. There is hope. Good luck to you.

I am glad your son is doing better! I am on zoloft, and it has helped. But I have been dealing with intrusive thoughts (horrible ones) since I was 7. I am now 23. It's just a really hard thing for me to work through because I am an over logical person, which leads me to more frustration when these thoughts happen. It scares me especially when it involves harming myself and I don't want to in the slightest. I have worked through so many parts of my OCD and have had them calm down, but the thoughts have only gotten worse. Not better. I hope one day they get easier to manage. I know I can't carry on like this. Thank you for your words <3

[Missy Muffet]

Originally Posted by Teen Idle

I am glad your son is doing better! I am on zoloft, and it has helped. But I have been dealing with intrusive thoughts (horrible ones) since I was 7. I am now 23. It's just a really hard thing for me to work through because I am an over logical person, which leads me to more frustration when these thoughts happen. It scares me especially when it involves harming myself and I don't want to in the slightest. I have worked through so many parts of my OCD and have had them calm down, but the thoughts have only gotten worse. Not better. I hope one day they get easier to manage. I know I can't carry on like this. Thank you for your words <3

My son developed paranoia about his intrusive thoughts. The Zoloft helped decrease the intrusive thoughts tremendously, but the paranoia remained out of habit. He started a low dose antipsychotic a few day ago. The intrusive thoughts are gone. The paranoia is subsiding.

Stick with it. Keep talking to your doctor about options. From seeing my son suffer, I know it's hell to go through, but I do know there is hope. Good luck to you.