[FaithlessCat]

I'm having a bad day today. I have an excellent relationship with all of my neighbors. We have a real community feel about us. We have parties on the green in front of our houses. We go running together that sort of thing.

Recently I have noticed one of my neighbours pretty much goes to see everyone except me. I see her coming and going for drinks or chats with my nearest neighbour but she has not once come to me, to the point where when she bought my son a present she sent her husband over with it . something she would NEVER do with anyone else.
I knew I was being silly so I went over to her and tried to explain what I was feeling and she assured me she didnt have a problem with me.

However, the way my OCD works is if I do have the guts to go ask someone and they say no, I then feel that by asking them they won't like me, so it's a no win situation and its just horrible

We also have a residents notice board on facebook which we used to just chat or if someone needs milk or sugar in an emergency LOL. The other night I sent out an SOS for some soda and also asked if anyone knew what time our local Garage closed at. Not one person answered me. Not even to say Yes, no nothing,

There is nothing I can do about this but I feel really isolated and I can't help but wonder if it's because of my household ( DH and DS have ASpergers ).

I mean I just think that was downright rude not to answer, but then thats because I would always answer, and not everyone is like that, and in typical Pure O fashion this is now going round and round in my head.

Edited to add :

actually one of my neighbours is also my Physiotherapist and I have a session with her today so its the perfect chance to talk to her about my fears but I need to do it in such a way as to not then come home thinking she doesnt like me because I was having those thoughts arghhhh god I really Hate this, I wish I could just think Normally. whatever that is

[kaliope]

yes, it really sounds like your ocd is driving you made. I use a mindfulness technique for my ruminating thoughts you may want to try. I have a door at the front of my mind and one at the back of my mind. the thought comes in the front door and I let it pass through and out the back door with out judging it. I just imagine it passing on through. I actually say that to myself...just let it pass on through and watch it leave out the back door because I know it is an irrational thought. I hope this helps. take care.