[Ann75]

Hello! I hope someone could help me with this. I posted this in this topic, because I guess it's some sort of OCD.
Starting this September I will go to university. It's far from the town where I live, so I am going to live in a dorm. But somehow I'm so scared that I may die there. I don't know why, I just fear that I could die if I move there.
The truth is, it was really hard to make this decision (going to university), so I guess this could make me worry about dying there. This will be a huge change for me, it will be a whole new lifestyle. I'm mostly worried about my loved ones (who are living here in my town) being sad because of my death.
Do you think it could be because of the fear of the unknown and how I'm going to live there? Or because of the fact that I'm going to be away from my loved ones?
I don't know, if it matters or not, but I'm having these fears mostly in the evening or at night.

[kaliope]

hi ann
I think it is definitely the fear of your new situation and probably not ocd at all. in a way part of you is dying. your old life is dying and a new you is being created. a new independent you. you will not have your family and friends helping you on a daily basis to help you make decisions about things, you new life will be your own. it is totally natural to be afraid. but you will be ok. you will probably be homesick but you will adjust. look at it as an adventure. a time to discover you. welcome to psych central. you will find we have several forums where you can post about your concerns and receive feedback from other members. you will get a lot of support here. again, welcome

[Ann75]

Originally Posted by kaliope

hi ann
I think it is definitely the fear of your new situation and probably not ocd at all. in a way part of you is dying. your old life is dying and a new you is being created. a new independent you. you will not have your family and friends helping you on a daily basis to help you make decisions about things, you new life will be your own. it is totally natural to be afraid. but you will be ok. you will probably be homesick but you will adjust. look at it as an adventure. a time to discover you. welcome to psych central. you will find we have several forums where you can post about your concerns and receive feedback from other members. you will get a lot of support here. again, welcome

Thank you for your answer and kindness!
Actually, I think this is OCD because I also have a fear of sleepwalking. I didn't mention it in my previous comment, but I am afraid that I might fall or jump out of the window of my dorm room while I sleepwalk.
I don't know if I ever sleepwalked, I didn't noticed anything that could prove that I'm a sleepwalker. The only two things I know about: My mom told me that I laughed in my sleep (this last year maybe), and once I fell asleep with my bra on and woke up without it (this was years ago). But I still fear it could happen!
I heard from a friend a few months ago that they fell out of the window while sleepwalking. And a month ago, when I head to sleep on the second floor it just came to my mind that it could happen to me.
I know it's just fear, but I'm still afraid that my subconscious could do it, even though I would never ever think of killing myself.

[kaliope]

I would classify it more as anxiety than OCD

[Notoriousglo]

OCD is an anxiety disorder. I had fears about death that wouldn't relent. I had to get on an antidepressant to get rid of them.