[pete2014]

I have been dealing with ocd since the age of 20. I had tendencies of ocd since I was a child. I went through depression at the age of 20 as well. I had been dating someone and a bunch of stuff happened at once. I am so tired of having these ocd thoughts. The major ocd thought that I have dealt with forever is that "I am meant to be a nun!!!!!!!!!!!" I hate even thinking this thought. I had my ocd under control for a few years. I had a great psychologist and was in an awesome relationship. My ex boyfriend who I thought I was going to marry and who I was with for 2 and a half years got depressed. I had to move out and I had a great job for 2 years and I know I wanted to work with kids. I have been on my own for a few months and I still love my ex boyfriend very much but he is still depressed. In that time I became his caregiver more than his girlfriend and it sucked. My anxiety was under control for so long but I have lost 2 jobs in 6 months because of everything. I have a new job now and I have applied to start school to be a teacher in Sept but I have away too much time to think as I living on my own. Now my ocd thoughts are worse than ever and I am thinking I need to see a new psychologist as my last psychologist was not really getting me anymore. I feel as though my nun thoughts have come back because I was having so much trouble in relationships. I am 28 now and I feel pressure to have my life in order. I am more afraid than ever now because I am so afraid I have never had ocd and that God wants me to be a nun and that I really want it to. I am afraid that I will actually give into these thoughts because these ocd thoughts are so intense and seem to never go away. It's like maybe I will find happiness if I actually give into these thoughts...yuck last thing I want...anyway long rant but that is where I am at.

[Crazy Hitch]

I'm sorry to hear that you're not in a good place right now.

There's nothing better than having a good T that we can discuss things with. I'm hoping that you will be able to find one that can help you with this.

You are not alone in your type of thinking. I am hoping that this gets better for you.

Take care.

Hello pete2014: I'm sorry to read of your ongoing difficulties. I hope you are able to connect with a new therapist so you can begin to explore & resolve whatever it is that is at the root of your obsessive thoughts. My best wishes to you.