[Cool_22]

There was this thought that what if I killed my mom. I do not want to kill her I love her. I'd rather kill myself then her. I got the thought watching a scary movie. Every time I see a scary movie in a ad or on tv I remember of the thought half of my brain is telling me to do it even though I AM NOT GOING TO. I want to get it off my mind but it keeps popping back up. If I tell my mom it's going to be awkward and I'm scared we will lose our relationship and she will be scared of me and she will send me away. I feel alone and trapped. Every time I think of it I get really sweaty. Is this normal. I am a normal like any other kid I don't have a disease or anything. I am not on any medication pls help!

[kaliope]

well I see you posted in the ocd forum so I am assuming you have a diagnosis? hopefully you are getting treatment. weird thoughts like this are normal according to my abnormal psych teacher but for them to linger on and trouble you so deeply is not. your therapist can help you cope with these thoughts and teach you how to let go of them. welcome to psych central. you will find we have several forums where you can post about your concerns and receive feedback from other members. you will get a lot of support here. again, welcome

[Alone & confused]

Please seek help from someone, just to play it safe! If you felt strongly enough to come here looking for an answer, there MAY be a need to talk to someone. This is obviously bothering you sweetie, and I hope that there's nothing wrong, and maybe there's not. But if this worries you so, it couldn't hurt to get help, to put your mind at ease if nothing else. Good luck! And welcome to PC!

[Secretum]

I think you have a lot of insight to post this in the OCD forum, because that is a very likely cause for these thoughts. My brother has OCD (purely obsessive; "pure O") and his worst obsession was that he would harm us. He even could see how he would do it and everything. He got treatment and now is doing much better. He doesn't have these thoughts anymore, and he is a healthy, happy, well-adjusted teenager.

You're not going to harm your mom. Worrying about doing something irrational and dangerous is a classic OCD symptom. I can't say if you have OCD or not-I'm not a doctor-but I can say that help is available. You're going to be alright.

[AlphaAlpha]

It think something else that might help is realizing how irrelevant these thoughts really are. What I mean is that they don't do any good at all. It's like adding oil to milk. It just doesn't serve any purpose what so ever. Also, our minds follow our actions as well. For example, we can't learn how to play basketball by reading a book about basketball we have to actually play the game to become better at it. Trust me I know it is easier said than done but if you keep telling yourself that it isn't possible to overcome then you will only limit yourself. Try to become one with your true belief system and then take action on it while allowing the thoughts to be there at the same time. You don't have to accept the content of the thoughts for goodness sake but just accept that you are human with thoughts. The thoughts are just information, nothing more or less. Every human has messed up thoughts. Take care my friend, I wish you nothing but great health and courage. Have courage.