[MissSquish]

Hey im new, i have had an issue that i have kind of kept secret apart from my BF knowing. I have been picking my face for over 15 years to the point where it bleeds. I am very good at hiding it and didnt think that there was a name or diagnosis for this...i kinda just suffer with it...well today i really went to town on my face and picked holes all over it...i dont even realize i do it until i look in a mirror and see blood all over my face. Today i just thought i would see if there was anything i can do to stop it but apparently it is just something i have to stop on my own...like i could get therapy but nothing sounds worse than sitting in a room while someone asks me to dig into my past for a reason why i do this....there is no reason, i just do it. There is nothing that triggers it, i just get the urge to do it...sometimes i catch myself doing it without even knowing it. I did have a messed up childhood but nothing i havent come to terms with...i guess im just a picker lol. was hoping i could maybe find others who also do this or who have overcome this and get a little advice on how to stop. Its getting to the point im scarring my face and i want to be able to walk down the isle without feeling like a giant scab. i hate my skin and i wish i could get a transplant. Well there you have it im sure there are bigger problems out there than my scabby face.

Thanks for listening to my rant lol

[jelly-bean]

I know you said that you didn't like the idea of therapy but I sort of hope that you will give it a bit more consideration. Something is causing you to "just do it" and it is very hard to stop if you don't understand what is causing it. You said that your childhood was mess up and probably somewhere in there you will find the cause of your problem and you will only get there with therapy. There are others here who have the same problem and I do hope that one or mire of them can help you too.