[emmamental]

hi,

I have been diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia and Obsessive compulsive thoughts. And personality problems.

Some of these thoughts are of a sexual nature. As well as this, I have voices calling me a pervert. I dare not look at people for fear that they will think I am one!.

I have read some things about entities and how they can put thoughts in your head.

Some of them tell me about how i can't do the smallest of things i.e. i cannot move my arm or i should not take a sip out of a cup of tea, out of anxiety. They tell me i am getting things wrong, terribly questioning everything i do.

They tell me i am going to get crazier.
The voices say I have lost my soul. I get feelings like either another personality or entity that is attacking me, in my teeth, in is very evil and vicious.

I worry that I am not good enough, the voices say negative things about me all the time.

Also I have intrusive feelings in my body that feel like other people.

Does anyone else here experience similar problems?

(((((hugs)))))

you are certainly worth it.

I just wanted to say that

[Skeezyks]

Hello emmamental: I don't know anything about your situation. But since you mention your diagnoses, I presume you're seeing a psychiatrist and / or a therapist.

The experiences you describe sound to me like the symptoms one would expect in a person who struggles with schizophrenia & obsessive thinking. So my suggestion is to talk with the mental health professionals in your life about what you're experiencing. If you're not seeing anyone currently, please do so.

It is certainly possible, even probable, there are other members here on PC who have similar experiences. However, knowing that will not make any difference in your life. In order to heal you need professional mental health services. I wish you well...

[defyinggravity65]

Hi,
These symptoms largely sound related to your schizophrenia diagnosis. However, I have OCD, and I can definitely relate to the feeling of not being good enough. It must be very difficult to have that feeling AND experience voices that are telling you to believe it's true.
Please know that the voices are wrong. Who you are as a person is not what you are feeling right now, what the voices are saying about you, or the strange feelings you feel taking over your body.

[emmamental]

Thank you so much for your replies.



Emma xx

[Als1495]

Hi, I can understand where you are coming from I too hear voices, mine call me names , put me down, and curse at me. I have also been told to only take one sip of a glass of water and sit it back down, or to sit in a chair and stare at a certain spot on the floor and don't move for hours at a time,or I would be severely punished, and I was afraid.

I also feel entities physically.. I have schizophrenia, ocd, and anxiety.

Most of my voices are under control with medication, but I still feel them and have intrusive thiughts, but medication sort of takes the edge off...

Are you on any meds?

[IchbinkeinTeufel]

Similar, yeah. I've dealt with intrusive thoughts for over a decade.

[emmamental]

I'm on Clozaril (425 mg) and abilify.

It seems like people around me are speaking about me, and I can relate / find meaning in every overheard conversation/ sounds / books etc.

I agree the meds take the edge off things but they don't get rid of them completely.

the intrusive thoughts can be bad sometimes. they make me think I'm a bad person.

Its good to know others experience this too.

Emma xx